OOOooOOoOO I'm shakin in my boots

Well so welcome back to the world of the internet....again... finally have my own internet...nobody can take it MUHAHAHAHAHA...hehe sorry I'm excited. I will have to get pictures of my new house on here...Brian and I are doing really well. The stress level is diminishing. surely don't expect it to go away but we are working really hard.

Last weekend our Neighbor took a can of raid to our dog then came after her with a baseball bat while she was on her lead in her yard. still working on than one... lacking a police report for some reason. and some other things....but yea working on that...I'll be making an appointment with the police chief....*sigh*

Not that I want to bring this here...but yea sorry...going to anyhow. There has been a little mud slinging going on. and well yea, decided to do a little reading today just to see what was going on. Really truly i was astonished. My friend...my BEST friend was literally attacked by a mangy two faced cow. yea don't look it's scary. lol I really can't help but laugh...and I'm sorry to who may ever be disillusioned to think that I wouldn't stick up for my BEST friend. no matter anyones rights wrongs or otherwise. a friend is someone who knows everything about you and still loves you just the same. Shana is many things to me. and YES I will defend her...I noticed not many others jumped to it. this is a woman who has done many great thing in her life. she has a heart of gold. and is far from selfish. *sigh* it really saddens me that there are such immature and pathetic people in this world. but anyhow I've said my piece about this. I will not reply to anymore comments...anything else said will just be ignored on my part...I just really hope no one is going to overstep their bounds. this is really sad that people think they need to sling mud...anyways enough of this....Happy thoughts.

I have to go put my other half to bed I will post again soon....I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!

OK just so you guys don't think I'm just hiding out somewhere I finally got my camera charged....YAY! anywho here are a few pictures...











these trees are everywhere, I'm not sure what they are but they have these beutiful pink flowers all over. they line the streets with them, it's awesome. if i have a yard ever i'm going to have to have some. here is close up...



















Aren't they pretty! oh so Pretty!...A walk Anyone?









Cheap Cigarettes...welcome to tobacco country...







New meaning to Roll your own huh?

Hmmm...kinda lost as to where to start...not a whole lot going on. other than just waiting. talked to my aunt in Wassilla today, she says I need to do everything in my power for my parents. or when something happens I'm going to have regrets. but at the same time I can only help them if they want to help themselves...but how can they do that when they don't think there is anything wrong. what d I need to call Adult services and animal control...god I could just see her turning my life upside down then...it would be hell on wheels. But I'm not going to allow her to have me over there at her beckon call all the time cooking and cleaning for them when ll it does is make me crrraaazzzyyy...that and they wont let me do what really needs to be done. grrrr....so yea we are paying the credit card of, we have everything else up to date,

so then we can just leave. I'm pretty much going to go over there and say ok look this is what i have to offer, you need to make these choices, i have this much time, and these are your options. and if thay decide not to do it well I give up. And my family is going to hate me. can't even get my brothers to return e-mails or calls, they are just glad i'm here and they arent. makes me want to just disapear into the horizon...sever all contact, and pretend i don't know anything...

OK so I'll try to make it a little longer for you...just a couple more letter...now it is longer?...yea yea ok a real post...I WANNA RUN AWAY...I'm ready to take my man the dog and everything we own and run away from my family and never return....never talk to them...hell why don't I just change my name. My mom is spreading rumors. my brother that is suppose to own both these houses won't return my calls. my mom is playing the oh I'm dying game. my dad is really sick and she's having him call and be like can you do this and that and this and that...*sigh* but it's not just them either. My cousin has missed me in the last 10 years and really thinks i need to just stay here with her and forget about Brian. everyone else here think i can do better and blah blah blah...what if I think he is the best I can do and I do want to build a life with him. Jeez...can't seem to get people to quit worrying about my life.

My mom has so put me on a pedestal to these people...shit she even told my cousin that I actually did graduate high school and finish college....oh and Shana...you'll love this one...all those little things that my mom never unpacked to use so she came down here and bought new one...guess who has all the stuff I asked for when my mom left Alaska....guess what...my cousin has all of it!...the mixer, her knifes...stupid little things that just made me go wow...after all that...anyhow...im going back to sleep night night

I'm Back

Just wanna say hiiiii! I'm back online again...and even my own computer wooowooo!!!

Hi there...just FYI I'm moved over to my cousins, and there is Internet over there but I am having problems with my video card so I may be distant for a bit, but i will be in and out of my moms and i promise I will still post.

OH yea and this was in the front yard...Cute huh?...at least you thought they were...how would you like to pick that up and move it out of the road?...

Goooood morning... afternoon yea ok it's a little late. I'm just bored mostly right now...contemplating talking to my parents we are going to move over to my cousins but I'm worried that my mom is going to freak, you know how she does when I leave... I dunno I'd think she'd understand. the house wreaks and no matter what I do it still smells. and then there is no AC in the trailer. and Stephi has a huge extra bedroom. soooo common sense says...yup that's what I'm thinking. the only concern is that of Blue and Dozer. but we have kennels and gates...*crossing fingers*

So Brian and I went fishing on the lake the other day. was pretty cool I got one hell of a tan. Brian caught an 18" cat fish...they fight pretty good. I got skunked. total bummer...found out yesterday that my dad is having trouble with his liver as well now. his blood pressure has been pretty high the last week or so. the Doctor said it is a combination of things that is causing the high blood pressure. but the liver is the main one. the other is that he is down to zero lung capacity. so yay one more thing to concern about. but I've got to run...catch ya laters.

Thunderstorms

So the dog is finally found something that puts fear into her little bones. thunder...I truly think she thinks it is gunshots...but it makes her crazy. the last few days it has been in the mid 90's here with an incredibly high humidity so we get thunder showers every night. I think it's cool I love watching the storm...can't say the same for blue.

Brian and I are kinda at our stress point as far as my parents go. we are going to be moving over to my cousins so that first we have AC and can actually sleep and second so I can be a good 30 min drive from my parents. my mom is playing her normal mind games...getting my dad to do her dirty work or calling me when she has something to nit pick at Brian about like I'm his mother! we have gotten a lot of work done here but there is so much more. I have been keeping in contact with my brothers so that they know what is going on. neither of them had any idea how sick both of my parents are...my mom has been playing it as everything is pppeeeaacchhhyy. WRONG!!! so yea I've been trying to keep them on the ball.

everything else is going well. I have an interview on Monday @ Macy's for visual merchandising...not sure if I'm going but I thought it would be a lot of fun. I figure I'll go to the interview to at least see what they are going to pay me...never know might make me rich...sorry I just woke up I must still be dreaming... laters

N.C.~ Hot...Sticky and I've got a tan!

Well Hello everyone, It's great, I got to go through and read everyones recent posts. I'm so glad to hear everyone is doing so well. I have missed you all terribly. I saw all the pics. from jim's creek and memorial weekend....yup...I cried like a baby....I miss it soooo much. I'm glad everyone is enjoying thier summer though.

Brian and I are doing well, It has been in the mid 90's here almost 100% humidity..we pray for cloudy rainy days around here...but I will say I do look like I spent a week in Hawaii... I promise I will do my best to post on a regular basis. things are hectic around here...but that goes with living on the same side of the country with my mom! lol anyhow I am doing well I will spill more later...

I'm Back...Miss me yet?

So I'm connected again woowoo...seems as though I've missed a lot...guess I have some reading to catch up on. Since i don't have have a whole lot of free time I will do my best to stop in and post. have a good night...I've missed blogger land

You know...I realized something today...I got all brave and wore a nice long denim skirt to work today...but ...Fat people should never were those...I felt like a tube steak....just a thought

So I can't go anywhere with shana without torturing myself so I've noticed...And I just noticed I beat her to Blogging today which will probly never happen again. But anyhow... We took the kids including Amaris to the park....Ok the school but everyone knows they have cooler play equipment...God I miss being in elementary school. So we played it was late but it was still light out! hehe...

we made our way around the school yard...And then we got to the swings...heh I love to swing...You feel like your flying..*sigh* until you go so high you start losing your stomach...But nope I was allllll goood...However as I'm flying through the sky I thought to myself...hmm I bet I could still jump like I did then...It's only pea gravel...Really nice cushion...Little impact...I could do this...So I catch the right speed...Adjust....And the dismount...*THWACK* ugh...You really shouldn't try this while wearing a purse....So I tried to hang myself...It was an accident I swear....Forgot all about the purse in fact...But as usual when with shana I crumpled to the ground hysterically laughing....Just another sight to see...BUT my feet didn't end up above my head this time!

Well hello everyone sorry I haven't Blogged in so long...BUT...I've been busy workin workin....OH yea and I got a new car....I love it...Its a '98 VW Jetta....White it's soooo pretty...Goes fast too...I'll get around to that...But yea it holds 14.5 gallons of gas...soooo much better than the green bean. I have to say I did shed tears over the Beast...Even if the guy at the lots said he wouldn't let me drive my truck any further than to the dump...So tonight I decided to go get Alaine because well...Yea I was a lil frustrated about things (but as we know don't blog about work)...Plus ya know gotta go show the new car...

So we decided to go for a drive...I figure eh Lets see how she does to Beluga Point...hehe...

Minnesota a Cst I see red and blue lights...I gotta get used to the new speedometer...Just happened to be APD's brand new advertisement...And of course its a ford truck...BLAH...mam do you realize you were doing 65 in a 45 and a construction zone...Why no officer I was just keeping up with traffic....ooo damn did I get reamed for than answer...Id have to assume he knew that was a crock(realized that as I pulled away and saw the temp sticker in my back window)...Asked for the usuals....Before I got to my regisration...mam do realize if I were to give you a ticket right now it would be over $600 dollars...Yes sir(but I had my seat belt on...And my license plate is clean!) well mam you need to slow down and I'm sure your in a hurry to get some where but its late and your probly late so slow down...Yes sir thank you officer have a good night!....heh so the car has been christened...Might have to say I made it to Beluga point and back and my gas gauge didn't move!!!! hehe...Well Enjoy I figured this was blog worthy...Have a good night.

Pecker Clan huh?..Well gee golly...That about fits...Better bring some ear plugs too...Just have to add those to the list...Damn birds. hmmm so lets see... What else....Heidi you and your other head wolf member will need to speak with me about the clan master and his youngests attire..........Anyhow...I'm glad shana finally took that heater out of her back yard...She was makin me do slave work!....hehe...Oh yea...And Josh thanks for the spin art! It was pretty rockin!...Can you do it in different colors next time?....Should have got a picture but they washed of at the first puddle I went through...But don't worry ill make sure you remember forever *grin*....mmmm anyhow I have to go start making lists for the next couple weeks so I can make sure I make it south for the festivities. Have a good weekend.

boring

So there is still Life out there... Sure is nice to know...

And yes...Stan that wonderful gift was an extra special thought from me...

Sorry there hasn't been anything recent guys...Can't say I have a whole lot to blab about except work...Which well yes the usual drunks are entertaining but its the same ones every day man!...And that guy that makes me roll his cigs....Dude he is such a pain....Think I might have to call the half way house and have him reevaluated...I think he needs more meds. I think I'm going to have to start working a night shift at the store here and there.....Just so I have good stories.

Bestest friend

So I was wondering around online looking for the perfect gift for My Best Friend...I must find the perfect gift...for this is my best friend!....I came close today...though I had wished it would have been bigger just to show how good a friend you are....





"Hold your horses! This is our most popular pucky, just right for the favorite cowboy or cowgirl in your life! This pucky is Au Natural and decorated with boots, rope, and other related items reminesent of the Old West. Perfectily presented on a wood base in a muesum quality 4" x 4" acrylic case for hours of viewing pleasure! Picking the perfect pucky from our pastures at Horse Pucky Ranch is not all it's cracked up to be as close attention is paid to texture and firmness. This pucky is passed by inspector #2. It also comes with a description! We will drop ship this thoughtful gift anywhere in the continental US for only $4.50. "

Never Argue With a Woman

One morning the husband returns after several hours of fishing and decides to take a nap. Although not familiar with the lake, the wife decides to take the boat out.

She motors out a short distance, anchors, and reads her book.

Along comes a Game Warden in his boat. He pulls up alongside the woman andsays, "Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing?" "Reading a book," she replies (thinking, "Isn't that obvious?")

"You're in a Restricted Fishing Area," he informs her. "I'm sorry, officer, but I'm not fishing. I'm reading.""Yes, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could start at anymoment.

I'll have to take you in andwrite you up."

"If you do that, I'll have to charge you with sexual assault," says the woman. "But I haven't even touched you," says the game warden.

"That's true, but you have all the equipment. For all I know you could startat any moment.""Have a nice day ma'am," and he left.

MORAL: Never argue with a woman who reads.It's likely she can also think.

Is it BBQ season yet

*Yawn* So I put in my leave for Memorial weekend...Had to be sure that I'd get the time off and well they see that as first come first serve...So I figured id be a head of schedule LOL...Looks as though I'll have a little person a long for the ride this time...Should be interesting...Just add one more to the crew. However her grandmother would like to meet the family...I think sometimes she wonders just how normal me and my friends are LOL...But maybe we could have a BBQ before the festivities begin...Just an idea...Sorry there haven't been many meaningful blogs lately but I've been busy busy busy...heh...I havea secret too! MUAHAHHAAH...Laters...

Fitting

So I do believe this is much more befitting to me...