Rage against the homeless

Alright, so I know I haven't blogged anything meaningful in a while so I might as well it's my day off and I'm procrastinating doing laundry. I've mostly been working..So yea that's about all I talk about now...Hey maybe I'll have another job soon! *rolling eyes*..But anyhow

So, company policy says we can't serve the homeless...Lots of reasons...Valid ID..Drinking in public..Shoplifting,begging..And the list goes on....

So it is a constant battle...Always..

Day 1...

I'm behind the counter just hangin out...My coworker is sitting out front smoking...Still withing eye line (coworker signals)...homeless lady walks into the store...Native, late 50's, about 6 layers of clothes on and in serious need of a bath...Not a shower a good soak...Ok maybe a few soaks...As she walks past the counter and my watchful eye...I noticed she'd peed her pants..hmm...The stench follows...She comes to the counter..

Ah yes.. I think to myself..hmm this should be interesting...Where's the lysol..

Ok so she comes to the counter..Big less than toothy grin... The stench of urine and booze waifs over the counter..I politely smile and ask for id as I look over her shoulder to see my coworker outside shakin her head and giving me the tap on the nose...I was one step ahead..

hmm no ID...Well mam to be in our store your required to have ID...Well I'm 57 she says can't you see that...Well lets try this...mam have you Been drinking this evening...mm well no I I was just getting done babysitting I want a beer now...hmm yea well have you been drinking already?
no..hmmm well I can smell liquor on you...Well I just woke up I had a few beers last night...Oh I thought you were babysitting...(damn who's letting her watch their kids)...hmmm well company policy says I cant serve you because I can smell liquor so ill have to ask you to leave...She left not very willingly ...But a quick threat to Call the police or CSP hurried her out the door...

Mind you it took three days of this before she gave up it was to the point she wouldn't get but two steps in the door and we'd have to tell her she was 86'ed and was trespassing...

There are a few here and there that we just know...All we do is ask for ID when they walk in and they turn around and walk out...About 4 or 5 of them anyways...

There is this one...Tend to stand across the street and beg money from bar goers...ID guess he got kicked out of the local mini mart / liquor store now though...He's started to ask people to just flat out but him a beer... There has been a couple times he's had customers ask up to watch them walk across the parking lot with their stuff because he'll follow them...Now come on dude your standing across the street so drunk your puking between begging patrons...Priorities I suppose...

so Christmas rolls around and they all think the rules don't apply...I saw every one of them that day...They were gathered around the street in herds. This one man in particular caused quite the mess..The one I mentioned earlier...He'd worked his way around the block and managed to hide on the side of the building we didn't have a camera on and next to the restaurant...Cause they all know if they aren't on our property we cant do anything... He's coaxing customers over to him and begging beers from them because its Christmas...Well they get a drunk guy to come in...And well he was drunk I picked up on that one rather quick like...However since the intoxication had set inhe decided to share his knowing...He started off with "you know what I'm really up to huh?"...Well yes indeed I do sir...I'm listening...I'm buying for homeless....I said awww how nice cause its Christmas huh? Yea its really nice of me huh.... Well that's too bad sir cause I cant sell to you anyways...But thanks and have a great night...

black guy comes in buys a pack of phillies...2 min. Later walks in again and tries to buy the same 2 40's that the other guy bought...hmmm well this is interesting lets see what happens...He bought them...Walked across the street and dropped them in the snow...NO WAY...Well he just got himself 86'ed...And the rage against the homeless goes on...

rethinking things

So like nothing new is going on...I've been going out a little more meeting some people...its been really cool...never quite new what i was missing... ..thats kinda something if nothing else hehehe..I understood that if none else did.

i've been changeing a lot in the last few months...especially since my parents left...I had to rethink my whole life...and learn a whole new set of lessons that trust me i learn somethin new every day.

god have i got to rearange somethings...cheers!

Birthday return

So this hunk of metal crashed...*sigh* another $260 out of my check...glad i get some holiday pay on my next check.

So I missed everyone...i'll have to do some catching up i'm sure...lots of reading yay!

*doin a dance* today is my Birthday WOowoo...22..hmm yea i have a feeling this is going to be a conerstone year in my life lots of things are changeing, im hopefull for new beginings , lessons and some great times no doubt!...I missed everyone so much the last few weeks...

Thank you ladies for an awesome B-day I love you...you guys are great to me.

i got to talk to my daddy today for about 30 min...I so miss him. I cried like a baby..I miss him so much..he sounds better...but i can still hear the pain in his voice...*sigh* welcome to life. I still wish he was around sometimes...sure could use a hug now and then.

my day off...woooo

I put up my Christmas tree today...

Another day

GRRRRR...a big fat GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! *sigh* so have you ever wanted to shake people until they up and smell the freakin coffee? or just realize they are answering their own questions?...or maybe what they are looking for is right in front of them but no matter how much you point it out and show them they don't get it?!?!?!...ooo oo how about this one...or maybe they are so stuck in their own way they are too blind to see anything????...amybe just takeing a chance in life...can't get anywhere if you don't start somewhere...yea one big fat GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! but this is all just in my head!!!!
(I plead the 5th..all explinations must be aquired later)

(don't ask)

(ok maybe)

Oh yea I forgot I was blogging...oops...heh

anyways so i'm loving work...I'm worried about moving to this new huge store I kinda like the hole in the wall i'm at. I think things are falling into place, I like my job, im paying my bills...ontime none the less...i'm still thinking about school..i just really dont know there are lots of pro's & cons there....but anyhow...

I'm feeling really out of place in my own room...Like it's not me anymore...I've changed so much in the last year..I think its time for a change..unfortunetly i still wanna just take everything down and start over...but I cant...there are somethings i need so I will have to do it piece by piece..

I've also been feeling very artsy latley...I'm thinking i'm going to start some sort of artistic journal...i've really had the craving to use some different meterials and canvasess...I'll have to find some time to work on theese things...anyhow it's getting early...g'night all

heh

Heh...More...drunks

Ok so tonight...figured to be a slow monday right?...MUAHAHAHA

So Mr. Jose Cuervo was getting legs....noticed we were missing a few.. .well I'm hangin out being bored when one of our regulars came in. started puttsin around bottles 'browsing" whatever
as soon as another customer came in i noticed him head straight for jose. well Alaine happend to walk out of the back and catch him sliding jose down his pants...nice...86'ed for life! yea right he'll try to come back again...we'll get him...jerk!

If your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post these instructions on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Drunkenness in public..Chapter one

Reason to refuse a sale...
1.Under 21
2. Accompanied by under 21 (sometimes parked in car around corner or behind building(under camera) or at the gas station next door.
3.more than 2 visits to the store for liquor in one night.
4.fake ID
5.Expired ID
6.Intoxicated #1 I can smell beer or liquor on your ass!
7.Intoxicated #2 You can't stand up straight.
8. Intoxicated#3 I saw you walkin down the street and I know you can't walk a straight line.
9.intoxicated #4 I sold you three 40oz beers an hour ago....Did you lose them????
10. Due to previous "behavior" you've been 86'ed SUCKER!...Get outta my store!..MUAHAHAHA

And the last and most important reason to not serve someone Booze?....
10. CAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO!...Be nice sucker!


OK so obviously I'm rather having fun at the liquor store...Thought I might have to share some experiences with you guys...Might get a chuckle out of them.

OK...Day #3 Liquor store #1
Man walks into store, steps around counter to gaze at expensive whisky...Dividend time so who knows... I am standing three Ft. Away...Watching...One bottle...Two bottles...hmmm 3 bottles oops no that ones too big *click*...heh he's not stickin around..*note to self*...6ft, older, grayish shaved head, at least 6ft., 230lbs.,blue and black flannel shirt...Oh look he's coming up to the counter...NOT! This man suddenly morphs into a marathon runner and out the door and down the street...Clerk #1 & #2 chase and take the phone with them of course...me...Helping left over customers...So that was a "Grab & Go" ...Nice training

Day #3 Liquor store #1
Later that evening...
2 younger Military gentlemen enter store in Class A's and Black tie...Interesting...Try to purchase beer..ID is required ya know...Oh wait your friend isn't 21...Sorry you need to leave (did I mention we keep their ID...$1000 fine ya know...Says so...You know that big yellow sign on the door?) guy under 21 refuses to trade military ID for state ID...MUHAHAHA..You'll be doing push ups in the morning...Phone rings an hour later...Can I swap for a State ID..heh...Your not allowed in the store sir...$1000 fine every time...Call management in the morning...heh

Day#3 Liquor store #1
Even later that evening...
Lady comes in...Buys cigarettes & bottle of wine...Normal...30min laers...Lady #2 comes into store...Mentions Lady #1 is in parking lot crying hysterically...*sigh*..Go see what's up...Yup definitely...Lady#1 won't say anything...hmm...Can I help you?, did your ride leave you?, were you walking?, are you hurt....No answer...Just crying..Oh she's trying to talk..."I'm drunk" heh..Well that explains a lot... Mam can you get up and come to the store?....Yea right...Oh yea use the wall for support...Police still haven't shown up for the grab & go...Don't call them....Lady comes into store...Props herself across the counter...Gentleman walks into store....Lady walks out...Not going far that's for sure...Sits on curb....attempts to light cigarette. Calling CPS...15min wait...hmm well its better than the cops....Man purchases...Walks out...Drunk lady found another seat....In his cab. Drunk lady unwilling get out of cab...Sits back on curb...Store closing time ...No CPS...hmmmno drunk lady either...Oh well lights out night night LOL

Update...

Hmmm...so I wonder if I still have an audience of Bloggers...we'll see.

So yup...still workin..still liking it. I havent managed to get myself in trouble or fired so im doin pretty good. I really like the people I work with. the customers are always questionable LOL...go figure.

I feel like i'm on the totally opposite schedual of everyone i know, so unless its in the morning...I don't get to see or talk to anyone. *sigh*..mostly been helping Shana move to her new house in my free time. I got to do laundry today....that sounds pathetic...I think ms. heidi thought i was a gohst when I came to see her the other day. *sigh* Tony, I miss talking to you. I'm sorry my emotions have been in a jumble. I hope sooner than later I can refocus, and hopefully manage to find time to talk with you...maybe I can even convince ya to come see me *grin* hehehe












So I got my answer...I miscarried three days ago...no mistaking that one. Never been in so much pain or seen so much blood in my life. anyhow..I'll stay away from details. I'm really not sure how I feel right now. This is really the first time i've sat down to actually process something in the last week or so. I havn't been sleeping hardly at all...I do know i'm all messed up emotionally... kinda glad I havn't had the time to sit down and think. I'm not really greiving, I'm bummed, but I also know if it was ment to happen it would have. I can't change that. I'm also happy it happened naturally and not by the hand of a doctor. however I'm also kinda glad my life won't be turned upside down, and I will still be able to live here, and have an opportunity to live my life. But I do worry about missing out on the experience, and with my past health history if I will ever get to enjoy the experiences that go along with haveing children. Only time will tell on that one.

My parents are broke down in Iowa...again. well they made it half way *rolling eyes*...wish they would have listened to me...but hey.

Guess what the scale said this morning...260lbs...*doin a dance*...I'm so proud of myself *grin* not sure I believe it...but hey I can try.

Suckage...

Seemed like a bad day all around...
Cept shana getting to move in to her house...Have I mentioned...IT ROCKS woowoooo...

S.T.A.S.H.

To the Right ladies...


*sigh*..So I got my answer on the baby thing...Not what I wanted, however probly the best all around. I totally feel like I need to take a step away from life and think about me and what I really want.I worry I've damaged a relationship, one that could have been a life long friendship, with a really great person...Don't know that it will ever be the same. I'm really willing to give it another chance..but I need to refocus on my life first.

Feel like I blew it I shouldn't have let it get my hopes up...*sigh* and I really don't want to call all the docs and cancel my apptmnts. I hate listening to them :(

really wish right now I had someone to snuggle and fall asleep with..Yea yea ladies I know...Pull out the vib....But its not like that.

anywho..I'm gonna go pass out...Night night

Whatever

Ok so I've been working..Woo freakin woo..It's pretty cool, I enjoy it..And it's getting me out doing things. Tell ya what though there are some crazy's in this town. anywho, sorry I haven't blogged in a while...I feel like I'm neglecting everyone with everything that's been going on.

Ok...So let me step back a couple weeks....I found out I'm pregnant...Most of you that read this know that by now, please no names, anyhow that has been a trip all in its self...At the moment I'm really not sure I'm pregnant or not still, I went in the other day to CPC to get a pos. Precinct test and a due date confirm. On an ultra sound... My appt. started out with a "counseling session" yea right... I might has well have went to church...The lady asked me about my religious beliefs and blah blah blah..So I told her I've been learning about different religions and I'm really undecided at the moment..Well she took that as an in, she decided she needed to explain Christianity to me. Yea so I sat through that trying so very hard to tune her out. She went through all the normal pamphlets for Precinct after the pos. Precinct test, even gave me a lil baby cross and a baby's first prayer book...After that we went in to do the ultra sound...The tech did her thing...She didn't "see a heart beat"..All the sudden they both got totally sympathetic on me and a sorry your baby is dead attitude. didn't hesitate to take all the pamphlets and stuff back and then insisted on praying with me...So I talked to my normal doc and I guess seeing a heart beat so soon is minimal..So I really have no clue at the moment...

Now...Seems as though you ask some...And they think its too late...It's gone...Well I'm sorry people... Until I get a nag. prego test...Or start bleeding like a banchi...I have no reason to believe otherwise...

seems as though in the last couple weeks my life has gone to hell and back...Not the first time...And I'm sure it wont be the last...Welcome to life. Just as I thought things were getting to be somewhat calm in my life *wack* there's the 2x4 across the face.

K so I'm going to go on a rampage for a moment...Or two...yesterevening, I came home to a couple of my friends in a heated "debate" online...Was rather entertaining to get commentary from both sides...But you know good ole' me...gotta make everyone happy..Not that I can, but damnit...I'm gone try. Anyhow...I stayed neutral, and did my best to stay out of it. Well when all was said and done...I was asked what I thought..So I figured cool someone wants my opinion on the subject...Well stupid me I was wrong...What was being asked of me was to see the screwups one made and to tell the other good job... At least that's what I got but I could be wrong again..Not perfect ya know..And it was 4am...Anyhow...Anyone that knows me AT ALL...Would first know I wouldn't do that...It's inconceivable to me...I have few friends in this world and the ones I do have I cherish with all my heart. I see them all as equal...I wont do it...Anyhow I think I thoughroly upset one of these parties...Which tears me up inside..Because it hurts me more than anything to do have that happen...As if there wasn't enough going on in our lives already...Anyhow...I don't know how to fix this one, I don't know that I can for that matter... I am who I am...And I can't be sorry for that.

My brain hurts...My hormones are all messed up..I just started a new job that I'm trying to do my best at....I have way too many things to take in..I care way too much..And I'm still putting everyone before me...Not that its bad...But I do...I'm learning though. But I still can't help but cry myself to sleep for the last few nights...Not sure I really even know why...But last night for the first time in a rrreeeaaaallllyyyy long time..I thought about not wanting to be a part of this world anymore..I scared myself...I hate feeling that way...Not that I'd ever do anything stupid...But I still thought about it. I really don't know why, just way too much...I've been hurt I am hurting, I'm emotional...What happened to me...The one that's always calm, has a creative solution...Guess that's just for everyone else's issues...And because I can't seem to get my brain to slow down enough to get anything out...All I can do is cry..soo for now..I think that's what I will do.

to all of my friends... I care about all of you dearly...Some of you more than you will ever understand.

Slacking...

Yea yea yea....so I havn't blogged in a few days...Been workin woowoo...ok yea so its kinda boring but interesting...and I get to soooo mess with drunk people MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Anyhow...here are some jokes to keep you occupied for a few...laters


GAMES FOR WHEN WE ARE OLDER ( OR NOW )
1. Sag, you're It.
2. Hide and go pee.
3. 20 questions shouted into your good ear.
4. Kick the bucket
5. Red Rover, Red Rover, the nurse says Bend Over.
6. Musical recliners.
7. Simon says something incoherent.
8. Pin the Toupee on the bald guy.
SIGNS OF MENOPAUSE:
1. You sell your home heating system at a yard sale.
2. You have to write post-it notes with your kids' names on them.
3. You change your underwear after a sneeze.
OLD IS WHEN:
1. Going bra-less pulls all the wrinkles out of your face.
2. You don't care where your spouse goes, just as long as you don't have to go along.
3 Getting a little action means," I don't need fiber today."
4. Getting lucky means you find your car in the parking lot.
5. An all-nighter means not getting up to pee!

Thoughts for the weekend . . .
I signed up for an exercise class and was told to wear loose-fitting clothing. If I HAD any loose-fitting clothing, I wouldn't have signed up in the first place!

If raising children was going to be easy, it never would have started with something called labor!

Brain cells come and brain cells go, but fat cells live forever.
But Most Of All, Remember !

A Friend Is Like A Good Bra. Hard to Find, Supportive, Comfortable, And Always Close To Your Heart!

Working..woowoo

So I got a job...YAY! For me. I'm actually rather enjoying it. The people are pretty cool...And I see a person for a matter of minuets...And well yea and cause it is a liquor store...I'm In charge MUAHAHAH...Not the customer...Kinda nice. I'm learning a lot. Still trying to figure out where everything is...But that will take some time
....Did I mention..I smell like Bacardi Razz?...My mishap of the day, I was facing shelves and knock a bottle of it all over the floor..Behind the register of course..And all over my jeans....Was thinking how I was going to explain the stench to the officer if I got pulled over on the way home...Would be my luck lol..."Honest officer, I work in a liquor store"...heh I wonder how many times he's heard that... I could just see it...

Dashing through the snow....

In a one horse open sleigh..Ok so the green bean has got a few more horse's under the hood...But it was snowing!!!!!! Not for long darn it but it was!!!....Oh I can't wait to go find some kickass places to go sledding this year...Just hope I can find somone to go with me...Love the end of the circle ladie's...But well yea..It's the kiddie hill...*sigh* snow...gimmie 6 months I'll be sick of shoveling it...Cause BOB SUCKS!
(picture was taken 2 years ago, by me, around the kink flats on the Glen highway)

Oreo

Oreo's...MmMmmmm..yup good stuff

I'm Here

i'm here...Kinda lol...just been trying to get everything in order for work and school, would like to be prepared. * rolling eyes* anywho...i'm a round

I do very much love kitty cats....but i know a few who could get into a situation like this. lol

Today

Today...hmmm..Yes...Today, I got 2 phone calls, I've got interviews for two out of three jobs I applied for the other day...Which I think is pretty good, I was going to go apply for a few more tomorrow but I think I'm going to wait until after my interviews. Feels good to actually be looking for a job and making progress...Its been a long time since I've had to look for a job. I kinda almost sorta miss being in the public.

hmmm....What else.....OoooOOoOOOooOO...I BOUGHT A COUCH!!!!...Finally...I can actually lay down on it and more than one or two people can sit on it at a time...It's...It's...AAAMMMMAAAZZZIIINNNGGGG! LOL...Anywho...Going to have to break it in now *wink*... But it's soooo comfy...thinkin I might sleep on it tonight instead of my bed, just because I can!!! MUAHAHAHA...Sorry I'm a little over excited about the couch...I'm so in love with it.
I got pretty Lucky, I called this lady that wanted $180 for a couch...kinda rolled my eyes when she told me...Then I started asking about it...usualls...Any pets blah blah blah..And then I wanted to see it...She lived up in Discover heights....Ok no one knows where that is....Way yuppie...I would put money on it...That this couch was moved into this ladies house by the furniture movers less than a year ago...God only knows how much she paid for it...The couch was still in its original spot it was brought into the house...And even the cushions have never been flipped...I think I got a deal..Specially when I got it for $150.

Hmmm..Anything else interesting...Oh yes..Shelley drug me out to a Bonfire last night...Literally drug me...I just wanted to go to bed but noooooooooooooooo....hmm so yea ill admit it was fun...I had a really good time. Got to play in the mud with shelley's truck hehe, hung out with a bunch of people I didn't know, but they were all really awesome. Then we all went to denny's...LOl thnxs to me being DD...GEEZ something must be wrong I'm finally 21 and I still don't drink *rolling eyes*...Whatever I had fun.

Lets see I'm still working on paper work for school. Have to get a hold of my parents tax info. BLAh...Don't see why they have to go off their income....Don't even live here anymore...But it sucks...oh well...Cant wait to get back to school...Feel like I don't have a ball & chain w/ MOM painted on it following me around...But I'm actually being motivated and getting things done so I'm doing good.

however I did spend some money on clothes...They came in the mail today...Only had one thing that was really too small...But not for long wooowoo...

alright well nighty night all...laters

Lala

Well it seems as though my parents are on their journey...Talked to my aunt today, they've made it to Whitehorse. Lost a wheel & spring on the trailer...I'm just glad they were in a town when it happened. So since they are in Canada...And have made it past customs, I feel a big huge weight gone off my shoulders..I love them dearly..But now I can get on with my life..

And I did just that today, I went and filled out 3 job app's and I also went to UAA and got my stuff straightened out...Which is good...Looks like I might be going back this spring *woowoo*. Can't wait to get back into pottery and get all dirty again..I miss it sooooo much. I also have to go get approval from my professor for the advanced class. anywho...Feel like I actually got something done..Have to thank someone for starting my day off very nice *grin*...So have a good night all...laters

Color Test

Sooooo... Mr. Pooki Sent me to take this test it hit pretty right on...most of you ladies know me pretty well I'll think you'll agree. Anyhow here is a link to his myspace...and to the Color Quiz...wooowooowo enjoy!

Pooki's My Space ~ www.myspace.com/mrpolarbear

Color Quiz~ http://www.colorquiz.com/

And here are my results:

Your Existing Situation
Acts calmly, with the minimum of upset, in order to handle existing relationships. Likes to feel relaxed and at ease with her associates and those close to him.

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Unhappy at the resistance she feels whenever she tries to assert herself. However, she believes that there is little she can do and that she must make the best of the situation.

Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective
Wants interesting and exciting things to happen. Able to make herself well-liked by her obvious interest and by the very openness of her charm. Over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming.

Your Actual Problem
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.

Your Actual Problem #2
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Well...boys and girls...seems as though were having issues playing nice on the playground...

1. Tony, You are an awesome person and a deep thinker, you have the concept of where you are going in life, some do some don't. However...the first thing I thought when I read your comment was... wow he thinks he's better then everyone else, he thinks he knows it all...I'll make it really simple for you babe...you hurt my feelings...actually even made me cry...but yea shit happens.

I do belive what you see theese women doing is careing about a friend , how she feels, and they are all sticking together...now if you want to start flinging shit and steryo types i'm just going to start deleting comments(Ladies & Gentleman). You need to get off the whole WOMAN thing...none of us are the same...we never will be...but if you dont take the time or opportunity to get to know a person you wouldnt know that. we are all different.

All theese ladies are doing is sticking up for a friend they care about and don't want to see hurt. I talk about you to most of them, i've spent a lot of time telling them what an awesome person you are...and...well yea...your being a butthead.

2. Ladies, I love each and every one of you. You guys may all be married have a life and kids, and i may be young and a little nieve at times...but you ladies are my suport, you have always been there for me.I know i need guidence in my life...that has been so lacking it...this twisted path i've been on wouldnt have been possible without all of you to give me your guidence and advise...i know i may not always take it, however I do appreciate it.

3. i appreciate everyones comments good bad or otherwise...HOWEVER....Can We atleast attempt to get along please?!?!?!?!...

Art..."In My Eyes"

So I'm going to tell a story to help draw a picture in your brain of my opinion...Ok..So I'm going to try.

My Junior year in High School, I was in AP(advanced placement) ART. You were suppose to be a senior before you took it...But well yea I kissed a lot of ass and did a lot of awesome work to show my teachers I needed to be there...I found what made me happy...It was molding everything and anything around me into some form of an artistic gesture.

Now in my art classes it was pretty decent..Yes we had assignments but they were some sort of broad...You had a realm of what it was that you could put on that blank slate. Guidelines, yes, but any further than that and it became structured and more about the history of art.

Well until my Junior year. I was in class and my teacher was telling us about an upcoming art show..And that everyone was to do a project. I was doing a wax & Dye Canvas project...It was awesome, I loved the medias I was using...Something new to me but my limits were boundless...Well at the time it seemed so. Anyhow I got started on this project, and my teacher decided I needed some advise....And it wasn't on how to use the media. She decided I needed to add a whole bunch of things to this awesome painting. And well yea being a student at the time I followed the teachers directions...Did what I was told. Well it went into the art show..Not so much as a mention...But oh well..

how ever some of you may have seen that very piece of art in my mothers living room, you will notice...My name is not on it anywhere...I claim nothing of that painting...Because it didn't come from me. I feel as though my teacher might as well have just signed it...Now my mother and everyone else that came into her house oooo's and ahhhh's over it...I could care less...I feel as though every one of those brush strokes were from someone else...I refuse to take credit for it.

Anyhow I told you that story for a reason...Art is something that comes from within a person. There is no direction...Guide lines...It's free...Whatever comes from that persons mind and spirit. As to someone else it may look as though it came out of a trash can, and to some they may not see anything at all...But to that person who created it they can see anything.

as for the picture below...All of those things have something in common...They are all things I have interest in..Have a memory with, or they express a feeling I have...Either way it all came from me.

A Creation

This is something I created the other day while being bored...thought it wass pretty I think I'm going to see if I can cram some more cool stuff in there make it kinda interesting...but it was pretty.

*doin a dance*...So my mother gave me some cash and sent me to the store and told me to buy some pants that didn't require me to pull them up every 5 min. Yea yea...Anyhow I was pretty proud of myself when I went to the store and put on a size 18, WOW I'm like totally in shock... I really cant believe it. I so cried. I don't remember the last time I was this small :( I guess if I'm not fixing anything else in my life, this is a good thing to be working on. I know I'll never be Model perfect...Don't even want to in fact....Would be nice to fit on the amusement rides...Not get laughed and giggled at..Not to be seen as I'm easy...Not to be taken advantage of. A lot of because of how I look....Just want people to see me for who I am...And be able to look past my appearance. But I have to do this for me, I want to feel beautiful and confident when I walk into a room, I don't want to feel like the whole room is staring at me and I need to go sit in the corner, I want to feel ok walking through the mall instead of having the teenie boppers laugh and giggle. One thing I'm not looking forward too...@$$holes. like I don't have plenty of luck finding them already...I'll keep dreaming...Anyhow... I bought 3 pairs of pants and a new bra ...Majority of my bras are too big now too..Either they don't hold the boobies where they are suppose to be or the boobies fall out...Bad...Very bad. But I'm still happy to say they still need a DD *grin* ...Not going anywhere yet. Anyhow night all

Bzzz Bzzz

I'm Doing a Dance! WooWoo!!!

Ok so I went to my mom's today and busted some butt for a while, got a lot done, the house issssss sooooooo close! She bought for sale signs today...Everything is done, just minor clean up crap left...*sigh* it's almost over! So My mom Mentioned today that my dad is in kidney Failure...It wasn't to me but I was standing there...This is all knew to me I knew the last census I'd heard was they were still functioning at 33% which yes was bad but livable, but failing?...This is new...Totally concerns me, but yet could it just be another Mind game my mother is playing with me? Sucks cause I don't even know what to think about it I don't want to believe it, but at the same time if all the things she were saying were true he should be in the hospital...But know my dad and the way he is he wont do that until it's probly too late. But I really don't even want to think about it, but I know I have to. I can't help and I can't fix it. I so wanted to talk to him but he was sleeping the whole time I was there :(

But I did get a new phone today..Pretty nifty...Least I'm not having to completely disassemble it to make it function * rolling eyes*..I'll be calling Nokia this week.

Ohhh Yea...And I went and helped Stacy for a couple hours, she's getting hard wood floors woowoo! I got to do lots of screwing! LOL Yea ok I wish....Anyhow. Naaa we finished screwing the floor boards down, her dad is coming over tomorrow to help her put the hard wood down...It's perdy :)

Anyhow...Have a good night all...

Doobie Doooo

So everyone Should be so proud of me....I went and did something tonight!!! I went and saw RJ WOOWOO heh...Yea he finally came and saw my place me and megan hung out with him, played video games & watched videos..Pretty nifty...Finally nice to hang out with people my age...Totally different, (no offence to my *older Friends* I still love you guys. But hey it was better than sitting here all night doing a whole lot of nothing and feeling sorry for myself...Woo!...Hmmm anyhow I'm sleepy I'm off to bed nighty night.

Some more old scribbles of mine

An open road in front of me
Nothing to stop me
My thoughts are all I have
A calmness you could only feel on the open road
Nothing to do but clear my mind
Just to think and wonder
No disturbances
Just an occasional bump in the road
beauty all around
Trees, mountains, ocean, sky...And the open road

"Life"

Seems as though we go through life being confused...
Life is never easy...Never will be...
Learning lessons
Taking Chances
Yes I understand
Getting hurt
Being stuck...
I don't
All I want is to be someone
Have someone look to me...
Have someone care...
someone to listen to me and have it matter
Life doesn't do that
We must go through life wondering what's around the next bend...
Have you ever wondered???

There is a Person I know
A person who is like no other
A person who's love is unconditional
He walks proud and with a cause
His heart capable of so much love..
Yet scared like no other...

(K I wrote this at 15, just found out from my doc about my PCOS, and was told my chance of having children in my life was barely 20%)

Every girl has got a dream...
their mother wishes they same as she watches her grow...

...A mothers duty

Some day...Some time...
I want that job.

That dream may soon be torn from my grasp...
Some day I want to be able to fufill that desire...
I feel inadequate, inhuman...

Please don't take this from me..
I know everything happens for a reason
I still Wish...

Some old Poems of mine

I ran Across these the other day...They are about 5 years old....Thought I might share...Never know maybe I will be famous when I die...*sigh* oh the dream of an artist LOL


"In Dreams"

A Green meadow
A Blue Sky
A song in the distance
Two people dancing on the clouds
All the things that make a wonderful dream...
A knight in shining armor
A princess atop a castle
A dashing white horse
All in ones sleeping mind...

"To Mom"

Mom let me be Free
Give me Space
I need room to spread my wings...
And learn to fly on my own

Step back and watch...
When I fall let me get back up and try again.
When I step too close to that edge...
Say wait...
But don't be my guard rail.

I'm grown now...
You've helped me so...
But please...
Step back and watch me soar...
Mom I Love You.

"My Sunset"

I sit with my feet in the sand...
The sunset sparkling in my eyes...
I see the sun crashing down upon the mountains...
The sky is full of beautiful colors...
A perfect place..
A perfect time...
Now I just need the perfect Love
Where shall I find it?
Maybe I am looking too deep into the horizon...
My thoughts fall with it...
My mind is clear...
All will happen in due time...
Just as the sun will rise again in it's own due time.

"Mystery Man"

A hidden Face in my dreams...
I know your out there
I just have to find you...
Or have I already?
Maybe I just don't know it
I wonder where you are...
Do you know me already?
Or am I just a hidden face in your Dreams?
Shed some light on this face I see tonight...
Let yourself be known to me...
I long to know you so...
To see your eyes...
To feel your touch...
I need to know this mysterious face in my dreams...

"My Mind"

My cold toes
My motionless body
My mind has escaped me...
Gone to wonder my dreams
To seek what I see at night
Gone to surrender those feelings around my dreams
It's job is done
My eyes flutter
I awaken
Suddenly my dreams become faint memories...

"Hopes"

I get my hopes up...
And it fails me...
It happens and I fail it...
Either way my hopes are shattered.
I have failed...
My hopes are nothing but lies that lead me on...
They have lead me so many places...
It's all been untrue...
I don't know what to believe anymore...
My heart is lost...
I am confused...
My hopes are gone...

Only in the movies...

Ok so I'm watching "Monster in law" ...Good movie, very funny....Anyhow...

Lady totally reminds me of my mother...God I feel sorry for the man I take home to Mom someday *rolling eyes*...Hope he loves me a lot...Anyhow

It only Happens In the Movies...*day dreaming*

....Need I say more?

Trying

First off thanks to all of the comments I've been receiving...It's nice to know that I finally have people reading. Anyhow...Thank you much all of you for your insight. I have a lot of learning and changing to do...But I'm trying.

So I'm also attempting to Quit smoking ...So far so good....I can do this... There isn't any reason I Need to keep smoking...It was strange getting in the car and looking for my pack of smokes and remembering they weren't there... I was totally disappointed... However, My house is cleaner than its probly been in a really long time... And I also noticed that when I get bored I don't just go have a smoke... I do something... Interesting.didn't Lose my breath running up the stairs this morning either. Night time is the worst....Sorry Ms. heidi I miss you *HUGS*...It helps I had someone awesome around yesterday evening to hang out with and keep me occupied.

I have one major concern about quitting smoking and I'm doing my best to keep from letting it happen...But I really don't want to replace the smokes with food or munchies... I've worked so hard on my weight, I'd hate to get set back... I would be so disappointed...But I have to try that's the least I can do.


Next....So my mom calls me this morning just as I'm waking up..."When are you going to be here" ...."What are you doing today"..."I need you to go to the dump and move a dresser so I can put the house on the market"...GRRRR alll I could think was that I wanted a smoke so I told her ya know what... I'm going to have to wait mom....Besides that...I need to be doing so many other things. So she brings up my dad and is "Saying" he had a stroke and this is the beginning of the end and that if she doesn't get this stuff done she cant put the house on the market...And she's broke and yea blah blah blah I've heard the whole guilt trip more than I can bare...And so I ask what needs to be done right now... And she says the only thing stopping her is a dresser being moved!!!!!...THAT'S IT!?!?!?!Oh come on I know there are at least 4 willing and able men in that house laying carpet and working on the kitchen to move one dresser 3ft.. But no she wants me to drive all the way across town just for that...No she wants to B*tch and whine and complain to me cause my dad can't take it right now.There is no reason that house couldn't have already been on the market...She just always needs to find something negative... I'm tired of always having to save the day and be their parent...I shouldn't have to!.. So yea she's already got me in tears...

So... I go do my morning things... And I get a call,so since I don't want to come over... She suddenly needs "her truck" *sigh* I give up...Anyhow so she wants me to Drive it over to her so they can bring me back home and use "my truck" *rolling eyes* I said no...She could come get it ..She said fine she would...Waiting...Still waiting....

Sh e needs a Mute button...She doesn't know when to quit. All of that totally exhausted me...

So I have some ideas...First off I really need to get back into my writing and drawing... That would sooo help me...And I've started to do both...So that's progress. Anyhow I'm thinking that with the Balloon stuff and all on the side...I could get a part time job and still have time to go back to school...Which I do miss... I soooo miss pottery class *sigh*... I could debate about math...I so need help in that area. But with a part time job I could count on my rent being paid no matter whats going on with the balloons...And not smoking would save enough money to pay a lot of my other bills every month...The only other concern I have, is Student loans GRRR. I hate to owe soooo mcuh money not knowing where I want to go with it....hmmm...so I'm thinking...gotta remember Rent goes up in Nov....Bummers...brb phone...

...K so that was my mother...It's all over nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The service master guys showed up and decided to take the stuff to the dump for her so she doesn't need my truck...And one of the guys even offered to move the dresser for her....Amazing...I just know so much of this they could be doing for themselves...But they'd rather play helpless...Anyhow I'm going to go shut my stupid phone off and the computer...And do some relaxing...

So I feel like I'm totally lacking some direction...I've recently learned some interesting things...And they are making me wonder about my life...Generally in the direction that where on earth were my parents leading me...There was no direction...None...Everything was to benefit them..Claimed me running the business and passing off high school was to to keep the family going, and a roof over our heads...

As far as religious wise...There was nothing there either...I went to a private Christian kindergarten, that was the extent of that...Anything else I picked up was from distant family and friends...I still sometimes wonder if the ways I belief and think fit somewhere...

I feel like a blank slate... And I don't know who I am...What I want...Things I like to do...I sit and wonder if the things I do are because it's out of habit or if its because I really enjoy it....

*sigh* there is more...I will save part 2 for another day...

Two of a Kind

Monogamous ~ The practice or condition of having a single sexual partner during a period of time.

Relationship~ 1.A particular type of connection existing between people.
2.A romantic or sexual involvement.

Commitment~1.The state of being bound emotionally or intellectually to a course of action or to another person.


OK...So I decided to go look a few words up... I've been slightly confused lately..Actually more or less wondering if I'm seeing things the wrong way...Is it wrong to want to get to know someone and only sleep with them?...To ask for some sort of Monogamous Relationship?

Don't get me wrong I'm not asking for a ring on my finger or even a Boyfriend & Girlfriend thing...Would be nice but anyhow, just to be able to say hey yea I'm "seeing" someone...Getting to know them talking hanging out learning things about each other...Then if there are sparks there still ya move on to the next step....Now I thought this was how it works but lately...I think I've been mistaken...However...Could just be a change of generations and that wonderful thing we call evolution LOL...*sigh*...

You know...I've heard the speech's too..The "Oh but your still young"...So that makes it ok for me to go have sex with half of the town???...I'm confused and totally not interested....How about the "Just quit looking it will happen" speech...hmmm I don't know how that's going to happen while I'm sitting here ...Waiting.................Still waiting!..Ok so maybe that's a patience thing...Sorry I ran out of that with men...Oh wait that might have something to with "W" oh yea that's right I put my heart and soul into something that wasn't even real!!!!!!!!

I'd like to say that I really just don't want to get hurt again...But that inevitable I suppose... Live and learn...But I'm learning...However its dwindling my options...How far do I let it go...Or do I say ok this is what I want and nothing else will do?...But that's so not me!..I just want a chance...hmmmmm okies time for bed before I write a book...Night night

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Parents are such a pain! for some reason my father seems to think i owe him the world....but geeeeeeeez i just want a life...not like i even live there any more but sheesh. ok i"m just intirley frustrated so none of the is is going to make sence i really just want to scream and cry, they always have a way of ruining things...He can't even talk to me like an adult and thats what urks me the most...i'm a grown person I really dont think that i diserve that.. and as far as i'm concerned until he can do otherwise i shouldnt have to go over there...i really dont think i should be treated that way...I just want some respect...i've done so much for them and i dont even think they care or the think i just owe it to them...I just want a life...time to do laundry...wash dishes...go on a date without phone call after phone call!!!!!!!!....heck take a shower OooooooOOOOoo maybe a bath...couldnt get that lucky though huh? doubt it...okies I vented...laters

WOW!

Hmm...Ok there are still real men out there... K well I know you all don't want details..But I just spent the last 12 hours with an awesome person... We had awesome conversations, we laughed and had fun most of all...Anyhow I can only hope we get the opportunity to see each other again. So my mom called today While I was out driving around with my new found friend...I really need to just learn to ignore her... Anyhow I guess she had a surprise for me and was a lil upset she hadn't seen me...Well I'm SO sorry...I just want a life!!!...But anyhow she finally told me...My brother Charles is in town...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm just glad I'm not the only one here now. I feel bad I haven't been over there...I just really don't know what to do I've spent all summer on it..And I really am so overwhelmed with it. I need to get back to my life and get a focus... Heck just having the time to do my dishes and do laundry..Vacuum every now and then....Things like that...Oh hey yea Maybe even time for a date..sheesh!Anyhow...I'm going to go drift off to dream land...I have plenty to fall asleep thinking about tonight...Thanks again T I had a great time. Night all.

Blind date

So I figure since I got squawked at I should probly post LOL...butthead....

Anyhow...I help a friend paint her house...Got a lot accomplished I'm proud of us girls...

And let see oh yea I went on a blind date...Let see he didn't even get in my car he was too plastered to stand up! COME ON GUYS!!! I just want a decent date BLAH!!!!

Sweet dreams

Well it's 3:30am...but hey!!! it's done and he's perdiful!!!!

MMM K what's the deal....

So... I've thought of a dozen ways to explain this..And I can only start from the beginning.... I really want to say I've lost some weight recently...OK I can't really say weight because I weigh exactly the same as I did a year ago (according to my doc's records)...

Anyhow...About 4 months into this year My now Ex-boyfriend showed up one day and told me he was going to be a Daddy..Well I found he was "Playing" with half of Anchorage as well (GROOOOOSSSSS!!!!) (and after we broke up I found out he was doing the chick that was my informant...From somewhere else!!)WTF!...Whatever...

Anyhow I could go on I'm sure but his loss...Not mine... Yea so before I found all this out I know things were getting rough between us...And I put on some weight. I ended up @ 342lbs. Being my highest weight wearing a Women's size 28. My weight problems stemmed from many other things...That's a whole other therapy session... Anyways...This was it I think he finally pushed me over the edge..I felt like a disposable sex toy..I knew I was better than that...

now mind you I'm not going to go all glorious "I'm a brand new person" crap...I still suck...I still need to change...But I have to give him credit for being such a jerk...And to my friends who stood by me and put up with me and listen to all my gripes... And so I sat down and thought about all this diet stuff..And I couldn't do it...I couldn't just make it disappear...I'd done all the diets...Just wasn't for me...And then it clicked....It's not a diet it's a lifestyle...I couldn't just cut anything out of what I ate...

it was all little things...Gee don't whine about running up and down the stairs..How fast can you go...hmm groceries...How many bags can I carry... And That's how it started...And you know what for all you boys thanks for the help...But I know I can do it too...So move... It was so little things...

People ask me "what did you do?" "how did you lose all that weight" Nothing... I didn't do anything specific...People want something to blame...There has to be a reason...And if you have to narrow it down to one thing I'd have to say it would be YOU...It can only be yourself...Just think about it...I actually got up and did things...It was ok lets go do that...Oh you want to paint..Lets go common.. I just had to get myself moving.......

PROCRASTINATION!!!.... It is so bad...Just do it! Like Nike said....But all this wonderful stuff can't be temporary...If you stop it doesn't work anymore that why diets never work...Think about it... It has to be Always... Anyhow I'm down to just under 290lbs. And I'm wearing a size 18/20 I haven't worn anything that small since high school. I've seemed to have lost more inches and gotten more strength and endurance, I've gotten more proportionate rather than just lost pounds.

here are a few pic's ....


K that's my fat face on the right

This was my 21st B-day

I really don't have any current pic's that are decent...They lie sooooo bad... I hate cameras...

I've Been Tagged

Ten Years ago today...

I was 11 packing a camper to go on the last fishing trip of the summer...No doubt hauling firewood.

Five years ago today...

I was hehe... I dunno I should probly plead the fifth on that one...

One year ago today...

I was moving into my new apartment I do believe WOOWOO!!!

Yesterday...

Yesterday, I did a whole lot of nothing actually, because I was suppose to work, however, I'm assuming I got ditched.

Tomorrow...

I will do my last load of laundry clean my apartment, and probly go get the last of my things from moms. And probly have to clean and reorganize everything.

5 snacks I enjoy...

1.Bagels(w/raisins) LOL
2.I'd have to agree with the Margaritas
3.Carrots & Ranch
4. Hot Wings
5.Ice cream

5 Bands I know most of the lyrics to their songs....

1. Reba mcntire
2.tanya tucker
3.linkon park
4.Big & rich
5. Oakridge Boys

5 things I would do with a Million $

1. Build me a house
2. Buy My truck
3. Start a pottery business
4. Move my parents to another hemisphere
5. Buy a horse

5 Locations I would run away to...

1. Anywhere with a Beach and no hurricane
2.the middle of nowhere
3. Just keep driving...Just keep driving...Just keep driving...
4. Back to cali someday
5. And I can't leave homer out of this one

5 bad habits I have...

1.Smoking
2.Smoking
3.not exercising
4.staring at this thing with all the pretty colors...
5.being attached to my phone

5 things I like doing....

1. Camping
2.Driving
3.fishing
4.Pottery
5.being creative

5 things I would never wear...

1. I totally have to agree with the leg warmers
2.Mom quit buying me the shirt with the puppies and the kitties
3.I'm protesting My grandpa's Bronco's Sweatshirt he bought me...What a smart ass...He knows I'm 49ers fan
4.Butt Floss
5.Swim Suit w/o a t-shirt

5 TV shows I like...(I don't know if I can think of 5)

1.So you think you can dance
2. Anything Food network
3.Crossing Jordan
4. Overhaulin'
5. The Apprentice

5 movies I like...

1.mary poppins (hush it will alw

Thinking too fast

So...I have about 100 things running through my brain right now... I'd love to just be able to spit it all out. However...Yea right...It's a big jumbled ball of twine. Like there are plenty of things I know I need to be doing, but at the same time there are other things I want to be doing...However it seams as though I'm never doing either of those... I get pulled into others worlds too easily. It's not like they drag me into things...I just kinda do it. Ok my parents drag me into it...Kicking and screaming I might add. But I really wish I had more hours in the day..But don't we all. But I love all my friends very dearly, and a lot of what makes me happy is seeing them happy...But every now and then I feel like I'm getting smacked upside the head.

Anyhow, mmmmm....sllleeeeeepppp...I hear it calling me...Yup that's it... laters and have a good night to all

Workin' in the Rain

WOW...Ok I feel like a drowned rat...But hey I suppose 6 hours in the mud and rain working(and staring at Mike's A$$) will do that to ya ..However I'll admit I was glad to get out...Being sick the last couple days, I think took more of a toll on me than actually being sick...If that made any sense. I was really glad to get out of the house... Actually go do something...Got something accomplished too so that's even better...I'm still cold though....BRRRRR

Yea ok enough of that...I have some questions...And well I've got the rest of the world's eyes here...

1. if there is a "Normal"..How...Just how...Did we figure that out?..Something that has bothered me for soooo long....I mean REALLY...How do we know what normal is?...Because honestly the crazier I get the closer I think I get to Sanity...And yea I'm sure that made absolutely no sense.
2. OK.. I really want to say "I" however I do know I'm not the only one in this case so I'm going to generalize here... Why are we so afraid to do the things we really dream about?...Or say the things we know we need to..But never really do...hmm I'm confused..I know I need to say things...But it's like the just get temporarily shut off..dunno
3. Did I just totally contradict myself?????...hmmm

HMMM okies...Well I'm beat I'm going to bed..Night

Guess I should start with me...

Nice to meet you I'm Anna... Lets see..I'm 21, yea ok I'm totally bored with my life...But is it boredom...Or am I just lost...But hey what is life?...Where are we really going?... OK yea so I'm totally confused about what I'm doing with my life. I want to go somewhere but...Where. I mean think about all the possibilities...But each one has it's own list of little quirks....*sigh* ...Anyone know where I can find a life for sale???...Oh wait I'm broke.

So.. I enjoy all sorts of things feel free to check out my profile...I have Yahoo, AOL & ICQ...I enjoy chatting, playing games online. I love the outdoors..I'll probly never move out of Alaska just for that reason. I enjoy fishing most of all, and Camping. I like to play in the mud, enjoy the sunshine and walk on the beach. My fav. Thing is the smell of a fresh rain in the morning.

I'm a Balloon Artist and co- owner of a balloon company. Right now I make over 100 creations and sculptures. It is the funest thing I've probly ever done. I love seeing the look on a persons face... Oh My goodness!!...Did you make that???... Oh yes I did ...hehe

Anyways...Let's see my parents are moving out of state YAY!!!!! One less suitcase for me to worry about..Don't get me wrong I Love them dearly...But more often than not it seems as though our roles as parents and child are reversed...And THAT SUCKS...I want my own life. I will miss them though...My father I seriously worry about...I know he's nearing kidney failure..And being on oxygen all day and night...Will they even let you drive through the border with an oxygen tank?...hmmm interesting... Anyways I am rather concerned that I'll never get to see him again...And my mom I'm sure I'll miss her eventually but for now she's a pain in the rear...

Oh yea back to me....ummm ok I ran out of things...I'll think of something laters....

New things

So this is the new thing...hmmm...interesting...maybe I'm just behind the times...I must be slacking.
Not sure I will be able to find all the time I'd like to spend telling the rest of the world what I think...but hey! i'll try lol...lets roll...