Sweet dreams

Well it's 3:30am...but hey!!! it's done and he's perdiful!!!!

MMM K what's the deal....

So... I've thought of a dozen ways to explain this..And I can only start from the beginning.... I really want to say I've lost some weight recently...OK I can't really say weight because I weigh exactly the same as I did a year ago (according to my doc's records)...

Anyhow...About 4 months into this year My now Ex-boyfriend showed up one day and told me he was going to be a Daddy..Well I found he was "Playing" with half of Anchorage as well (GROOOOOSSSSS!!!!) (and after we broke up I found out he was doing the chick that was my informant...From somewhere else!!)WTF!...Whatever...

Anyhow I could go on I'm sure but his loss...Not mine... Yea so before I found all this out I know things were getting rough between us...And I put on some weight. I ended up @ 342lbs. Being my highest weight wearing a Women's size 28. My weight problems stemmed from many other things...That's a whole other therapy session... Anyways...This was it I think he finally pushed me over the edge..I felt like a disposable sex toy..I knew I was better than that...

now mind you I'm not going to go all glorious "I'm a brand new person" crap...I still suck...I still need to change...But I have to give him credit for being such a jerk...And to my friends who stood by me and put up with me and listen to all my gripes... And so I sat down and thought about all this diet stuff..And I couldn't do it...I couldn't just make it disappear...I'd done all the diets...Just wasn't for me...And then it clicked....It's not a diet it's a lifestyle...I couldn't just cut anything out of what I ate...

it was all little things...Gee don't whine about running up and down the stairs..How fast can you go...hmm groceries...How many bags can I carry... And That's how it started...And you know what for all you boys thanks for the help...But I know I can do it too...So move... It was so little things...

People ask me "what did you do?" "how did you lose all that weight" Nothing... I didn't do anything specific...People want something to blame...There has to be a reason...And if you have to narrow it down to one thing I'd have to say it would be YOU...It can only be yourself...Just think about it...I actually got up and did things...It was ok lets go do that...Oh you want to paint..Lets go common.. I just had to get myself moving.......

PROCRASTINATION!!!.... It is so bad...Just do it! Like Nike said....But all this wonderful stuff can't be temporary...If you stop it doesn't work anymore that why diets never work...Think about it... It has to be Always... Anyhow I'm down to just under 290lbs. And I'm wearing a size 18/20 I haven't worn anything that small since high school. I've seemed to have lost more inches and gotten more strength and endurance, I've gotten more proportionate rather than just lost pounds.

here are a few pic's ....


K that's my fat face on the right

This was my 21st B-day

I really don't have any current pic's that are decent...They lie sooooo bad... I hate cameras...

I've Been Tagged

Ten Years ago today...

I was 11 packing a camper to go on the last fishing trip of the summer...No doubt hauling firewood.

Five years ago today...

I was hehe... I dunno I should probly plead the fifth on that one...

One year ago today...

I was moving into my new apartment I do believe WOOWOO!!!

Yesterday...

Yesterday, I did a whole lot of nothing actually, because I was suppose to work, however, I'm assuming I got ditched.

Tomorrow...

I will do my last load of laundry clean my apartment, and probly go get the last of my things from moms. And probly have to clean and reorganize everything.

5 snacks I enjoy...

1.Bagels(w/raisins) LOL
2.I'd have to agree with the Margaritas
3.Carrots & Ranch
4. Hot Wings
5.Ice cream

5 Bands I know most of the lyrics to their songs....

1. Reba mcntire
2.tanya tucker
3.linkon park
4.Big & rich
5. Oakridge Boys

5 things I would do with a Million $

1. Build me a house
2. Buy My truck
3. Start a pottery business
4. Move my parents to another hemisphere
5. Buy a horse

5 Locations I would run away to...

1. Anywhere with a Beach and no hurricane
2.the middle of nowhere
3. Just keep driving...Just keep driving...Just keep driving...
4. Back to cali someday
5. And I can't leave homer out of this one

5 bad habits I have...

1.Smoking
2.Smoking
3.not exercising
4.staring at this thing with all the pretty colors...
5.being attached to my phone

5 things I like doing....

1. Camping
2.Driving
3.fishing
4.Pottery
5.being creative

5 things I would never wear...

1. I totally have to agree with the leg warmers
2.Mom quit buying me the shirt with the puppies and the kitties
3.I'm protesting My grandpa's Bronco's Sweatshirt he bought me...What a smart ass...He knows I'm 49ers fan
4.Butt Floss
5.Swim Suit w/o a t-shirt

5 TV shows I like...(I don't know if I can think of 5)

1.So you think you can dance
2. Anything Food network
3.Crossing Jordan
4. Overhaulin'
5. The Apprentice

5 movies I like...

1.mary poppins (hush it will alw

Thinking too fast

So...I have about 100 things running through my brain right now... I'd love to just be able to spit it all out. However...Yea right...It's a big jumbled ball of twine. Like there are plenty of things I know I need to be doing, but at the same time there are other things I want to be doing...However it seams as though I'm never doing either of those... I get pulled into others worlds too easily. It's not like they drag me into things...I just kinda do it. Ok my parents drag me into it...Kicking and screaming I might add. But I really wish I had more hours in the day..But don't we all. But I love all my friends very dearly, and a lot of what makes me happy is seeing them happy...But every now and then I feel like I'm getting smacked upside the head.

Anyhow, mmmmm....sllleeeeeepppp...I hear it calling me...Yup that's it... laters and have a good night to all

Workin' in the Rain

WOW...Ok I feel like a drowned rat...But hey I suppose 6 hours in the mud and rain working(and staring at Mike's A$$) will do that to ya ..However I'll admit I was glad to get out...Being sick the last couple days, I think took more of a toll on me than actually being sick...If that made any sense. I was really glad to get out of the house... Actually go do something...Got something accomplished too so that's even better...I'm still cold though....BRRRRR

Yea ok enough of that...I have some questions...And well I've got the rest of the world's eyes here...

1. if there is a "Normal"..How...Just how...Did we figure that out?..Something that has bothered me for soooo long....I mean REALLY...How do we know what normal is?...Because honestly the crazier I get the closer I think I get to Sanity...And yea I'm sure that made absolutely no sense.
2. OK.. I really want to say "I" however I do know I'm not the only one in this case so I'm going to generalize here... Why are we so afraid to do the things we really dream about?...Or say the things we know we need to..But never really do...hmm I'm confused..I know I need to say things...But it's like the just get temporarily shut off..dunno
3. Did I just totally contradict myself?????...hmmm

HMMM okies...Well I'm beat I'm going to bed..Night

Guess I should start with me...

Nice to meet you I'm Anna... Lets see..I'm 21, yea ok I'm totally bored with my life...But is it boredom...Or am I just lost...But hey what is life?...Where are we really going?... OK yea so I'm totally confused about what I'm doing with my life. I want to go somewhere but...Where. I mean think about all the possibilities...But each one has it's own list of little quirks....*sigh* ...Anyone know where I can find a life for sale???...Oh wait I'm broke.

So.. I enjoy all sorts of things feel free to check out my profile...I have Yahoo, AOL & ICQ...I enjoy chatting, playing games online. I love the outdoors..I'll probly never move out of Alaska just for that reason. I enjoy fishing most of all, and Camping. I like to play in the mud, enjoy the sunshine and walk on the beach. My fav. Thing is the smell of a fresh rain in the morning.

I'm a Balloon Artist and co- owner of a balloon company. Right now I make over 100 creations and sculptures. It is the funest thing I've probly ever done. I love seeing the look on a persons face... Oh My goodness!!...Did you make that???... Oh yes I did ...hehe

Anyways...Let's see my parents are moving out of state YAY!!!!! One less suitcase for me to worry about..Don't get me wrong I Love them dearly...But more often than not it seems as though our roles as parents and child are reversed...And THAT SUCKS...I want my own life. I will miss them though...My father I seriously worry about...I know he's nearing kidney failure..And being on oxygen all day and night...Will they even let you drive through the border with an oxygen tank?...hmmm interesting... Anyways I am rather concerned that I'll never get to see him again...And my mom I'm sure I'll miss her eventually but for now she's a pain in the rear...

Oh yea back to me....ummm ok I ran out of things...I'll think of something laters....

New things

So this is the new thing...hmmm...interesting...maybe I'm just behind the times...I must be slacking.
Not sure I will be able to find all the time I'd like to spend telling the rest of the world what I think...but hey! i'll try lol...lets roll...