Another Day...

Ahhh yes another day... exept i'm getting paid for not being at work... that rocks! so cross your fingers for me I'm still waiting to hear about a new job at work, at least an interveiw for it. *doin a dance* It is going to be a great opportunity, unfortunetly i'm hoping the female thing doesnt get in the way. only because it's int. tech support and I think there are a bunch of geeky guys...but don't hold me to that. just a thought. maybe I will be surprised. but still I hope I get the job . And I'm going to start protesting that no one is reading my blog anymore! I know it's because I never comment on anyone's blog...i'm terrible.

Winter Wonderland...

So the cold wind has started to blow in from the north, there is a soft white blanket covering most every ones lawn with a few pieces of green making one last effort to show through the snow. yay! 6 months of wet cold feet. blowing wind and snow...here we go again! but that is why we love this place right?.... I want summer lol...I want to go camping again... now! nice try right?

I think more or less I've gotten my self back into my rythm of working and paying bill taking care of things, and now I just need someone to keep me warm for the winter hehe. I wish, I am so wrapped up in work that I forgot about the litttle things i keep meaning to catch up on.... oh well I will get around to them all eventually. things like buying stamps for letters I have to mail...who mails letters anymore...i don't have stamps do you?

Connections in Blog land...

Here we go through our week of change in Los Anchorage. The leaves started changing last weekend and now we have full blown Fall. Is everyone ready for winter??? I think i am *knock on wood* did the snow tires thing...that was at the top of the list next is getting my back, back in shape...I sooooo don't want take a fall this winter and...mmm...yea just makes me hurt thinking about it....anyhow Just saying hi there I'm back in blog land. woohooo!

Random post...

So things are going OK, I'm currently having issues with my Back and hips. But I am working through it slowly but surely. It is keeping me out of work but dividends are going to save my but. I am kinda looking forward to paying bills...yay fun . I think I'm going to invest in a laptop with part of it though, I really miss having my own computer and I would love to be able to take it with me where ever I go.

I am currently a little distraught over the political issues going on in our country but that's politics... I think that they are being a little rough on Sara Palin. When I first started listening to Obama I was all for it... but now that I think about it and listen I have this deeps seeded hate for the man and I don't know him but he is way too good to be true and he needs to go back where he came from and quit trying to compete with the VP candidate. his rival is Mcain he has just run out of thing to pull the negative out of so he is going to pull things apart word for word.

It is really sad that to the rest of the USA Alaska is so mysterious...It's nice in some ways...but really they know nothing about us...and to those of you that are not in Alaska until you have really looked at what Palin has done for this state you need to do some history research and realize that yes people change their mind but most of all Palin is for the people she wants people to have the choice and for our government to be run by the people in this country and not the twisted politicians that we currently have running our government, I'm not saying it's going to work but pleeeease!....

Anyhow enough of that I'm going to go read some more news....laters.

Long time no post....

Yea yea yea....I know I haven't posted in a long time, I'm just about as faithful to my blog as I am my journal... soooo...what have you missed.....everything. I'm moved into my new place got a new job, got a new truck....yay for me now Im doing my best to take it one day at a time and keep my head above water with payments and all that good stuff. but it's working, 6 months at my new job and i'm vested with the union...though some i know would say the union sucks BLAh t you... I wish i wasn't paying so much in benefits and dues...but it's all suppose to wash in the end... I have faith... and well it's working so far, another two weeks of rough road and it will be smooth sailing from there... then it's just getting my things out of storage and ill be at home gain with my own things and then some. I'll figure that out when i get there though. any who I will try to keep up on the blog... I'm still not using my own computer cause it crashed way back when....but i still have access... catch ya laters.

Are you a Pill Popper?

Prescription drugs found in drinking water across U.S.

Did you know.... That your City Tap water, Grey water and Sewer water have been re-filtered and pumped through your house about 7 times??

Also...Aquafina is Bottled in New York...

First Choice(Fred Myers) is Bottles in Cincinnati, OH...

Dasani is Bottled in London...Mind you Coca-Cola Admitted it is nothing but tap water put through the finest purification System...the same ones that don't test Those systems for pharmaceuticals....

Hmmmmmmmmm...As I Wonder to myself

Believe...

Have you ever wondered what is happening to our world?....wonder where we are going?...I know....do you?...He is coming...and I believe.

The American dollar is crashing the Euro is soon to be the money of the world. Our country is falling We are battling over our next leader, Other countries are watching...and waiting. World war III is eminent. Our world as we know it is coming to an end. We are walking into our own distruction that has been foretold for years. The Bible had predicted this for centuries, God gave us 6,000 years to prove to him that he is the one and only....We as the human race have failed to follow his few guidelines for life...we will all soon understand.

I Understand now that I should have Believed in God and his son much sooner in life...maybe I all ways have. I just haven't ever understood religion in general...I know why now... they are wrong.

I will continue to worship the one true God...The God of Abraham...I AM A BELIEVER! God Bless.

Stopping in To Blog

Just here to say hey because I was told to keep blogging...and they will come....waiting...still waiting...

I have learned so much in the last week or so...and I have so much more to learn and live... I have some searching to do, I wish I had a computer.....*sigh*

Anyone want to give away a free running car?....come on....O.K. a Toyota Tacoma...manual preferably....I know I am dreaming, Thanks for reminding me.

Every one thinks I'm losing some weight...the scale won't tell me...cause I won't ask it. What do you think? *turns to the left* *turns to the right* yea I dunno.

SO a bunch of random thoughts....catch ya laters

Thank You

The last year of my journey through life has been interesting...to say the least. I thought I found "the one"the man I would surely spend the rest of my life with...I seemed to be content in this...we had goals, Ideas...and most of all a plan. We ran into some obstacles that we both hurdled well...so I thought...I look back at the last year and wonder where I myself went...together we made decisions and overcame many things. Throughout our relationship...many people told me I could do better...but really is there a such thing?...or is it what you make of it?...sometimes I think once again my mother stepped in the way and made it what she needed. But then I wonder how much of the relationship was an act...How long do people go on with the "I Love You's" before one or the other realizes that you are saying it just to be nice...and what kind of love is that....really. There are so many times I wish he would have just said....Hey I have a problem...But no he hid and kept it from me as to protect my feelings....How much protection is a lie?...Instead it felt like I was sitting in a dark room on a cold night...alone. This just tells me even more so...I lost me...Where did I go?.... What did I really want?...Love...That big HUGE four letter word...That is truly what I was looking for. I really thought I would find that... It was something we both longed for in life. I have come to a realization though...

I have found that...Not in my family, not in a man...But in other sorts of family, I truly hope that these people and their family and network know this. They have become a part of my heart in no way anyone else ever could. I believe most of you know who I'm talking about (the Baxter's, the Mclays, and the rest of the Harrington family) I really truly want to thank all of you for open minds and hearts. You have truly touched a person. I feel as though I really do have a family that cares...Truly cares. Thank you for seeing me as a person. You are all wonderful people. A special thank you to Shana's family for accepting me and giving me a chance to start over and get my feet under me once again. It is such a wonderful feeling to know I have real friends...You have done more for me than even my family would jump to. I really hope you all understand how much I appreciate you, and I know I can't say it enough nor are these few words enough to describe...but it is what I have...THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.

"You cannot depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus."
Mark Twain

A Great Man

Larry Lee Jacks

Aug. 15, 1934 – Feb. 20, 2008

Age: 73

Residence: Eaton, Co.

Tributes: Larry L. Jacks was born in Detroit, Michigan to Robert H. Jacks and Camilla (Robinson) Jacks.

On July 23rd, 1955 he married Jeanette Mae Dishon in Mason City, Iowa. From 1955 to 1982 resided in Iowa.

Larry spent his adult life as an over-the-road truck driver. In 1982 moved to Eaton, Colorado. Larry retired from Teamsters in 1997 at which time he started his own trucking company – J&J Trucking in Eaton, Co.

Larry enjoyed spending time with his children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren. He enjoyed fishing, hunting, and being outdoors with his family.

Survivors: His wife, Jeanette Jacks of Eaton, Co. Five children, Mike Jacks and wife Doreen of Greeley, Doug Jacks and wife Marijo of Greeley, Brad Jacks and wife Tracy of Eaton, Co, Becky Jacks of Northwood, Iowa, Debbie Hanford and Bruce of Greensboro, North Carolina. Grandchildren; Kris Jacks and wife Ashleigh of Loveland, Colorado, Kortnie Jacks of Greeley, Colorado, Jeremy and wife Laci of Greeley, Colorado, Donald and Joshua Jacks of Greeley, Colorado, Amanda, Janelle, and Megan Jacks of Eaton, Colorado, Anna Hanford of Anchorage, Alaska, John Conway of Redmond, Washington, Charles Conway of Rockland, California, Steve Williams and wife Mary of Longmont, Colorado, Todd Williams of Greeley, Colorado. Great Grandchildren: Nathan and Jaylin Jacks of Greeley, Colorado. Step Great Grandchildren, Jacob, Taylor and Logan Williams all of Longmont, Colorado.

This was my grandpa...he was such a wonderful man...all ways bright and cheerful..maybe that was stubbornness...but he was great...I will miss him dearly even though i only started to get to know him about 5 years ago, I quickly realized he was blood. He cared, took me in acceptingly with no hesitation...another grandchild. When he was trucking to Alaska he would all ways stop in anchorage before heading down to Homer and have lunch with me...I miss you grandpa...I know you will all ways be looking over me... I wish i could give you one last hug.

Blog blog blog, blog blog blog....thought I would blog...laters

So yea If you didn't understand that and are just now realizing this...I am Fat...just thought I would clarify...now the WWWHHHOOOLLLEEE world knows.

On any other note...I got a job...YYYAAYY!!!...spring break kinda threw me for a loop but I will get over it. It will help me accomplish what I'm after...and that is why we do it.

Brian called.. Waaaa...poor guy I think he might miss me...his bad. Some day some great "MAN" will come sweep me off my feet. spoil me rotten and actually realize there are real women still out there...anyways...hope they like big butts (really I thought mine was kinda lacking for my weight)(wow I just made me sound like a cow)(MOOO!)

hmmm...I ran out of words bubye!

I HAVE A FAT @$$...

HOORAY!...looks like less than a week and I will be working...It's a start...Kinda looking forward to it, I need to get started somewhere and paying bills sounds like a great place to begin. I am a little nervous about working with kids but I think it will most likely reinforce my birth control theory.

I just have to say...I miss my dog! As much as I liked to tell Brian She was his dog...She was mine. I miss her snuggles and her excitement when I would get home from work. How she played and how she was always under my feet looking for some sort of loving...mostly how protective of me she was...she really did love me, however I don't miss the steamy dogie piles.

So what is a reasonable amount to walk into a car dealer with for a down payment?...not BMW down payment..but cheap like I have to kinda buy my first car all over again down payment...hmmm something that is on my mind.

So now that I'm back In blog land I suppose I should actually blog...what a concept. I miss blogging...It was kinda my social life there for a bit. I Have had more issues with my computer than I need. I think I'm going to be going for a new one as soon as I can afford such an extravagance.

So the last year...It's been long and interesting. Full of adventures, lessons and stress. I have to say I have learned so much and grown up even more. I have discovered I really need to pay more attention to myself...And I'm not allowed to get wrapped up in boys...it's against the rules.
In the last month things really kinda got crazy for my family and I. My grandfather started having health problems and so did my father. My dad is still not doing very well, though neither is my mother, but while there I also realized I can't fix their problems and I needed to solely focus on my life. My Grandpa died two days after I returned to Alaska. Brian and I didn't work out..never really does when its a 70/30 split. relationships have to be 50/50, and we weren't pulling it off...he had so much going on in his head he didn't know which way was out. But, I am happy now to say it is over no regrets no more pretending everything is ok. But I am Home now...and that is most important. I have applied for a couple jobs, i will be starting school in the fall...and from there we will see how things go...

So I need to read my posts before I post...I see this. So the last few months have been very eventful for me. I have enjoyed my self, learned many a lessons, no regrets..I'm all good though. I mis some things but I am rather glad to be here.. I have a lot of work to do though...

Home...

I am so glad to be here... I have missed home soooooooo much. I'm very glad to see I was missed. I'm really looking forward to this summer, however, finding a reliable vehicle is my fist and foremost goal which comes with getting a job...but I have some Ideas. Anyhow I am glad to be here...Lessons learned and everything aside...No Regrets...I am Happy...I have a lot to work on...besides When did Shana Peirce her eyebrow?...that was a shocker...I do know I will never move away again...this is Home. Vacations maybe...but that is it. I was kinda bummed to find out that my friends care more than family...but I should have known that when I left...that is why i was here and they were there. Yea so I am babbling now...be back laters...