Are you a Pill Popper?

Prescription drugs found in drinking water across U.S.

Did you know.... That your City Tap water, Grey water and Sewer water have been re-filtered and pumped through your house about 7 times??

Also...Aquafina is Bottled in New York...

First Choice(Fred Myers) is Bottles in Cincinnati, OH...

Dasani is Bottled in London...Mind you Coca-Cola Admitted it is nothing but tap water put through the finest purification System...the same ones that don't test Those systems for pharmaceuticals....

Hmmmmmmmmm...As I Wonder to myself

Believe...

Have you ever wondered what is happening to our world?....wonder where we are going?...I know....do you?...He is coming...and I believe.

The American dollar is crashing the Euro is soon to be the money of the world. Our country is falling We are battling over our next leader, Other countries are watching...and waiting. World war III is eminent. Our world as we know it is coming to an end. We are walking into our own distruction that has been foretold for years. The Bible had predicted this for centuries, God gave us 6,000 years to prove to him that he is the one and only....We as the human race have failed to follow his few guidelines for life...we will all soon understand.

I Understand now that I should have Believed in God and his son much sooner in life...maybe I all ways have. I just haven't ever understood religion in general...I know why now... they are wrong.

I will continue to worship the one true God...The God of Abraham...I AM A BELIEVER! God Bless.

Stopping in To Blog

Just here to say hey because I was told to keep blogging...and they will come....waiting...still waiting...

I have learned so much in the last week or so...and I have so much more to learn and live... I have some searching to do, I wish I had a computer.....*sigh*

Anyone want to give away a free running car?....come on....O.K. a Toyota Tacoma...manual preferably....I know I am dreaming, Thanks for reminding me.

Every one thinks I'm losing some weight...the scale won't tell me...cause I won't ask it. What do you think? *turns to the left* *turns to the right* yea I dunno.

SO a bunch of random thoughts....catch ya laters

Thank You

The last year of my journey through life has been interesting...to say the least. I thought I found "the one"the man I would surely spend the rest of my life with...I seemed to be content in this...we had goals, Ideas...and most of all a plan. We ran into some obstacles that we both hurdled well...so I thought...I look back at the last year and wonder where I myself went...together we made decisions and overcame many things. Throughout our relationship...many people told me I could do better...but really is there a such thing?...or is it what you make of it?...sometimes I think once again my mother stepped in the way and made it what she needed. But then I wonder how much of the relationship was an act...How long do people go on with the "I Love You's" before one or the other realizes that you are saying it just to be nice...and what kind of love is that....really. There are so many times I wish he would have just said....Hey I have a problem...But no he hid and kept it from me as to protect my feelings....How much protection is a lie?...Instead it felt like I was sitting in a dark room on a cold night...alone. This just tells me even more so...I lost me...Where did I go?.... What did I really want?...Love...That big HUGE four letter word...That is truly what I was looking for. I really thought I would find that... It was something we both longed for in life. I have come to a realization though...

I have found that...Not in my family, not in a man...But in other sorts of family, I truly hope that these people and their family and network know this. They have become a part of my heart in no way anyone else ever could. I believe most of you know who I'm talking about (the Baxter's, the Mclays, and the rest of the Harrington family) I really truly want to thank all of you for open minds and hearts. You have truly touched a person. I feel as though I really do have a family that cares...Truly cares. Thank you for seeing me as a person. You are all wonderful people. A special thank you to Shana's family for accepting me and giving me a chance to start over and get my feet under me once again. It is such a wonderful feeling to know I have real friends...You have done more for me than even my family would jump to. I really hope you all understand how much I appreciate you, and I know I can't say it enough nor are these few words enough to describe...but it is what I have...THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.

"You cannot depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus."
Mark Twain

A Great Man

Larry Lee Jacks

Aug. 15, 1934 – Feb. 20, 2008

Age: 73

Residence: Eaton, Co.

Tributes: Larry L. Jacks was born in Detroit, Michigan to Robert H. Jacks and Camilla (Robinson) Jacks.

On July 23rd, 1955 he married Jeanette Mae Dishon in Mason City, Iowa. From 1955 to 1982 resided in Iowa.

Larry spent his adult life as an over-the-road truck driver. In 1982 moved to Eaton, Colorado. Larry retired from Teamsters in 1997 at which time he started his own trucking company – J&J Trucking in Eaton, Co.

Larry enjoyed spending time with his children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren. He enjoyed fishing, hunting, and being outdoors with his family.

Survivors: His wife, Jeanette Jacks of Eaton, Co. Five children, Mike Jacks and wife Doreen of Greeley, Doug Jacks and wife Marijo of Greeley, Brad Jacks and wife Tracy of Eaton, Co, Becky Jacks of Northwood, Iowa, Debbie Hanford and Bruce of Greensboro, North Carolina. Grandchildren; Kris Jacks and wife Ashleigh of Loveland, Colorado, Kortnie Jacks of Greeley, Colorado, Jeremy and wife Laci of Greeley, Colorado, Donald and Joshua Jacks of Greeley, Colorado, Amanda, Janelle, and Megan Jacks of Eaton, Colorado, Anna Hanford of Anchorage, Alaska, John Conway of Redmond, Washington, Charles Conway of Rockland, California, Steve Williams and wife Mary of Longmont, Colorado, Todd Williams of Greeley, Colorado. Great Grandchildren: Nathan and Jaylin Jacks of Greeley, Colorado. Step Great Grandchildren, Jacob, Taylor and Logan Williams all of Longmont, Colorado.

This was my grandpa...he was such a wonderful man...all ways bright and cheerful..maybe that was stubbornness...but he was great...I will miss him dearly even though i only started to get to know him about 5 years ago, I quickly realized he was blood. He cared, took me in acceptingly with no hesitation...another grandchild. When he was trucking to Alaska he would all ways stop in anchorage before heading down to Homer and have lunch with me...I miss you grandpa...I know you will all ways be looking over me... I wish i could give you one last hug.

Blog blog blog, blog blog blog....thought I would blog...laters

So yea If you didn't understand that and are just now realizing this...I am Fat...just thought I would clarify...now the WWWHHHOOOLLLEEE world knows.

On any other note...I got a job...YYYAAYY!!!...spring break kinda threw me for a loop but I will get over it. It will help me accomplish what I'm after...and that is why we do it.

Brian called.. Waaaa...poor guy I think he might miss me...his bad. Some day some great "MAN" will come sweep me off my feet. spoil me rotten and actually realize there are real women still out there...anyways...hope they like big butts (really I thought mine was kinda lacking for my weight)(wow I just made me sound like a cow)(MOOO!)

hmmm...I ran out of words bubye!

I HAVE A FAT @$$...

HOORAY!...looks like less than a week and I will be working...It's a start...Kinda looking forward to it, I need to get started somewhere and paying bills sounds like a great place to begin. I am a little nervous about working with kids but I think it will most likely reinforce my birth control theory.

I just have to say...I miss my dog! As much as I liked to tell Brian She was his dog...She was mine. I miss her snuggles and her excitement when I would get home from work. How she played and how she was always under my feet looking for some sort of loving...mostly how protective of me she was...she really did love me, however I don't miss the steamy dogie piles.

So what is a reasonable amount to walk into a car dealer with for a down payment?...not BMW down payment..but cheap like I have to kinda buy my first car all over again down payment...hmmm something that is on my mind.

So now that I'm back In blog land I suppose I should actually blog...what a concept. I miss blogging...It was kinda my social life there for a bit. I Have had more issues with my computer than I need. I think I'm going to be going for a new one as soon as I can afford such an extravagance.

So the last year...It's been long and interesting. Full of adventures, lessons and stress. I have to say I have learned so much and grown up even more. I have discovered I really need to pay more attention to myself...And I'm not allowed to get wrapped up in boys...it's against the rules.
In the last month things really kinda got crazy for my family and I. My grandfather started having health problems and so did my father. My dad is still not doing very well, though neither is my mother, but while there I also realized I can't fix their problems and I needed to solely focus on my life. My Grandpa died two days after I returned to Alaska. Brian and I didn't work out..never really does when its a 70/30 split. relationships have to be 50/50, and we weren't pulling it off...he had so much going on in his head he didn't know which way was out. But, I am happy now to say it is over no regrets no more pretending everything is ok. But I am Home now...and that is most important. I have applied for a couple jobs, i will be starting school in the fall...and from there we will see how things go...

So I need to read my posts before I post...I see this. So the last few months have been very eventful for me. I have enjoyed my self, learned many a lessons, no regrets..I'm all good though. I mis some things but I am rather glad to be here.. I have a lot of work to do though...

Home...

I am so glad to be here... I have missed home soooooooo much. I'm very glad to see I was missed. I'm really looking forward to this summer, however, finding a reliable vehicle is my fist and foremost goal which comes with getting a job...but I have some Ideas. Anyhow I am glad to be here...Lessons learned and everything aside...No Regrets...I am Happy...I have a lot to work on...besides When did Shana Peirce her eyebrow?...that was a shocker...I do know I will never move away again...this is Home. Vacations maybe...but that is it. I was kinda bummed to find out that my friends care more than family...but I should have known that when I left...that is why i was here and they were there. Yea so I am babbling now...be back laters...

Where is my Audience?

Missing everything...even the snow...

I can't say it enough....IIII MMMIIISSSS YOOOOUUUUU!....everyone....so in 4 days it will be a year and a half for Brian and I. Today I went to work , went about my business...stocking the cooler, mopping floors,...ok reorganizing the cooler...prior training sorry I'm a little O.C.D. My co-worker popped his head in the cooler and asked if i wanted some pizza...eh sure why not better than junk food from the store. go to wash my hands....ooo pretty someone got flowers today...I happend to notice the note on a big white piece of paper...yea I'm nosey I had to read it...even the " Love, Brian" (and hour into my shift of my second job for the day) totally walked away and about 5 second I stopped....and had to go read it again....It was for me!....my co-worker was in shock..."you just noticed that?"...sorry I was lost in my own little world. I have such a great man...quirks and all...He's mine...and I want the whole world to know. once again surprised me completly...But that was the highlight of my day...the rest was just work and that's no fun!....ok this morning was kinda nice...even got some "extra" attention before work...He's was playing it all day now that I think about it...hmmmm what a goof...But I love him.

Like My New Look?

Yea I decided it was time for something brighter, and more focused. That is kind of how I'm feeling. I really do miss everyone...but at the same time i feel like I've made progress in my life and that stepping away is really what Brian and I needed to refocus on us and take the next step in building our relationship. The first couple months were really tough. However we've both learned a lot, and also we've gotten so much closer to each other. Still we have a long road to go...but none the less I won't be going it alone.(I also spiced up myspace)

OOOooOOoOO I'm shakin in my boots

Well so welcome back to the world of the internet....again... finally have my own internet...nobody can take it MUHAHAHAHAHA...hehe sorry I'm excited. I will have to get pictures of my new house on here...Brian and I are doing really well. The stress level is diminishing. surely don't expect it to go away but we are working really hard.

Last weekend our Neighbor took a can of raid to our dog then came after her with a baseball bat while she was on her lead in her yard. still working on than one... lacking a police report for some reason. and some other things....but yea working on that...I'll be making an appointment with the police chief....*sigh*

Not that I want to bring this here...but yea sorry...going to anyhow. There has been a little mud slinging going on. and well yea, decided to do a little reading today just to see what was going on. Really truly i was astonished. My friend...my BEST friend was literally attacked by a mangy two faced cow. yea don't look it's scary. lol I really can't help but laugh...and I'm sorry to who may ever be disillusioned to think that I wouldn't stick up for my BEST friend. no matter anyones rights wrongs or otherwise. a friend is someone who knows everything about you and still loves you just the same. Shana is many things to me. and YES I will defend her...I noticed not many others jumped to it. this is a woman who has done many great thing in her life. she has a heart of gold. and is far from selfish. *sigh* it really saddens me that there are such immature and pathetic people in this world. but anyhow I've said my piece about this. I will not reply to anymore comments...anything else said will just be ignored on my part...I just really hope no one is going to overstep their bounds. this is really sad that people think they need to sling mud...anyways enough of this....Happy thoughts.

I have to go put my other half to bed I will post again soon....I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!

OK just so you guys don't think I'm just hiding out somewhere I finally got my camera charged....YAY! anywho here are a few pictures...











these trees are everywhere, I'm not sure what they are but they have these beutiful pink flowers all over. they line the streets with them, it's awesome. if i have a yard ever i'm going to have to have some. here is close up...



















Aren't they pretty! oh so Pretty!...A walk Anyone?









Cheap Cigarettes...welcome to tobacco country...







New meaning to Roll your own huh?

Hmmm...kinda lost as to where to start...not a whole lot going on. other than just waiting. talked to my aunt in Wassilla today, she says I need to do everything in my power for my parents. or when something happens I'm going to have regrets. but at the same time I can only help them if they want to help themselves...but how can they do that when they don't think there is anything wrong. what d I need to call Adult services and animal control...god I could just see her turning my life upside down then...it would be hell on wheels. But I'm not going to allow her to have me over there at her beckon call all the time cooking and cleaning for them when ll it does is make me crrraaazzzyyy...that and they wont let me do what really needs to be done. grrrr....so yea we are paying the credit card of, we have everything else up to date,

so then we can just leave. I'm pretty much going to go over there and say ok look this is what i have to offer, you need to make these choices, i have this much time, and these are your options. and if thay decide not to do it well I give up. And my family is going to hate me. can't even get my brothers to return e-mails or calls, they are just glad i'm here and they arent. makes me want to just disapear into the horizon...sever all contact, and pretend i don't know anything...

OK so I'll try to make it a little longer for you...just a couple more letter...now it is longer?...yea yea ok a real post...I WANNA RUN AWAY...I'm ready to take my man the dog and everything we own and run away from my family and never return....never talk to them...hell why don't I just change my name. My mom is spreading rumors. my brother that is suppose to own both these houses won't return my calls. my mom is playing the oh I'm dying game. my dad is really sick and she's having him call and be like can you do this and that and this and that...*sigh* but it's not just them either. My cousin has missed me in the last 10 years and really thinks i need to just stay here with her and forget about Brian. everyone else here think i can do better and blah blah blah...what if I think he is the best I can do and I do want to build a life with him. Jeez...can't seem to get people to quit worrying about my life.

My mom has so put me on a pedestal to these people...shit she even told my cousin that I actually did graduate high school and finish college....oh and Shana...you'll love this one...all those little things that my mom never unpacked to use so she came down here and bought new one...guess who has all the stuff I asked for when my mom left Alaska....guess what...my cousin has all of it!...the mixer, her knifes...stupid little things that just made me go wow...after all that...anyhow...im going back to sleep night night