Thursday, March 30, 2006

GREEN

Green is not me huh?...hmm The only thing I have against green....Is that it was my mothers fav. Color...Everything was green ...green ...Green...But I like this green...Why do I have to be blue???...Not everything can be blue...kinda depressing anyhow...Besides everything else in my life is changing...Why not my fav. Color?..I kinda am growing fond of orange and yellows too which is rather odd for me...Even more than green...But I want bright and cheerful things...Not boring and dull...Blue just Feels BLAh....

for some reason I feel the need to be original with myself...Like I'm slowly finding pieces of me and who I really am...kinda like putting a puzzle together, I no longer feel the impending desires of my mother forcing me to mold and contort myself to her wishes and how she'd like me to be...

Speaking of my mother *doing a dance* the house sold woo woo the house sold...Know what this means???...I do!!!... They are staying on the other side of the country woowoo...I probly shouldn't be so excited..But It means it will be a long while before they make it back to Alaska...I Miss my Dad dearly though...And I often worry over his health and his mental state...While being the only one around to put up with my mother...*sigh* can't win them all...

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Nifty...

MUAHAHHAA!!!! I did it...I did it...all by myself neener neener...hehe sorry I'm proud...

Friday, March 24, 2006

Returned

Nice to see pooki has shown his wonderful writing talents again...

good to know ya still think about me *grin*...Wow...It's pretty cool..I feel liberated...To know I really have no desire for him...I care yes...But that desire is gone...And I don't mind...It's amazing what someone else's outlook on life can do for you. Makes me feel good about me anyhow...

As for your Chips Pooki..I could care less but I'd assume that when the shelves are empty...That be good reason to get a phone call but those are up to my manager..I'm only a lil peon short and stout...Can't sell product that isn't there...Most people know that...So id then assume if your "driver" is getting commission he'd want product there as well...But maybe I shouldn't assume those things...

anyhow figured I'd blog this one guys...Made my evening brighter...

Thursday, March 23, 2006

This years festivities

So I have some concern about this years festivities and my new job...Not to mention being promoted to asst. Manager...Apparently I'm one of few who take my job seriously and follow through. I have gained much respect for some from this job including myself...And feel sorry for a lot of people...However I don't let that keep me from doing my job....Seems as though I burst a few bubbles every day...I do what I must....Rumor has it though I'm the biggest Bitch in Anchorage to buy liquor from...Have a feeling this summer it's going to be a very small world
I wonder if maybe I should place an add...

WANTED: Security personnel Certain dates and qualifications apply, please contact with resume.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

BS anyone?

So last night was totally awesome I hope everyone had at least as much fun as I did...I'm glad we all had the opportunity to sit down and have fun for a change I miss hanging out with everyone. LOL and I'm glad we didn't have a fire pit around cause I'm sure Baxter would have been perched in the middle of it LOL. Anyway thanks again everyone...It was a blast I hope we get a chance again soon.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Ok...So back to the drunks...

This has become the new routine for the day shift at the new store...Not quite as event full as the night shift but hey I get to have a little fun..."The regulars"


So this morning I open the doors...Ready for the awaiting crowd... I get the usualls that get off work @ 8am and are headed home ( I find these things out..Think being a hair dresser is bad?...)they are cool I see them once a day...Good peoples...Steel reserve 211 40oz...

Then as the hour strays on I have the "couple" that come in every morning who are...hmmm...Members..Of *anchor house...White male age 50 6'4"150lbs maybe long hair...Native female age 35 4'9" 150lbs...GPC 100's, GPC king, reese's king, paid separately.

Any minute now "the buglar lady"...Or "the flip flop lady"(she likes to show up at -10 with no coat wearing shorts or a short dress and flip flop fall on my head dress shoe kinda things.) She is now presumed our recent fire bug suspect...A week ago someone lit the trashcan on fire and shattered a window and charred up the side of the building pretty good. Come to find out she's a member of *anchor house as well..And has a criminal background of arson...Single Dr. Pepper in a 12oz can 3 muskiteers 1 package buglar rolling tobacco.

the old man in the orange coat...heh..I can't describe this one I don't know if I can...But he as well is a member of *anchor house...1 camel filter king 1 package top tobacco..Paid separately must have receipt and bag...

oh and don't forget the deliveries that are coming into a store with no back stock space...600 hundred's cases of beer on the wall ...Take one down pass it around 600 cases of beer on the wall...

hmmm here's a new one...ohhh pause at the "out only " sign(new inebriation technology...Arctic entry way..Entrance from there is to the right and exit from the store to the left..With large white signs and big black bold print that say in and out only all automatic sliding doors...If consumer pauses at out only door and takes more than 10 seconds to realize they are in the wrong place and that door really isn't going to open...We have to wonder...)oh that was long sorry...Any how only a slight pause...5'10" native male straw hat long hair jean jacket and boot...Not worried but I'm cautious...12c natural ice...

3 hours later...Same native male...Oops almost ran into the out door this time...hmm...oooo 24 can natural ice...heh oops watch out for that big display of beer sir...somethings different though...It's the hat!. This time it looks like it was sat on crushed and ran through the garbage disposal...I don't recall that.. Knowing full well this man is well over 45..."Do you have ID sir?"..."YYYes"..Whoa...My daily does of beer in one breath..."Have you been drinking already today sir?" .."Yea you just sold me a half rack"...Trying to hold in the chuckle.."Sorry sir I cant sell you any more liquor today"..And well I probly should repeat the words he mentioned on his way out the door....


And the day was only half over...HAPPY MONDAY!


* Anchor House.. the local I'm a nut job half way house...only alowed to purchase tobacco and food ..refused liquor sale due to psyciatric medications and some other reasons.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Okies... I'm feeling nice and organized about my life...Things are going very well...And I'm feeling proud of myself...Both my jobs are awesome...The liquor store wants to make me assistant manager...But I refuse to leave my store...Ok so my manager won't let me leave...My nanny job is definitely trying at times but I like it...And it makes it self worth while...Specially when I get to go to Hawaii for Christmas...hehehhe...

I have some concerns since everything its going so well I'm wondering what's going to come smack me in the face next LOL...

I'm on my own and stable...Sometimes I wondered if I'd ever make it this far in life..

.And as far as boys I really can't say I'm too worried about that situation...Yea I'd like a half decent boyfriend...Not just a toy...But I can't make that happen...So I will suffice with the things I do have and when it happens... Well then I guess I'll have to pursue.

only thing that I'm still uneasy about, is my parents house selling...It has to! Guys they cant come back! I love them dearly but I love them most on the other side of the country.

Anywho I had an awesome time today it was great to get to see everyone all in the same place...Summer bbq's Soon!!!

Thursday, March 02, 2006

so the man with the pirince albert and the jacob's ladder...If you don't know what they are i suggest you not go looking too hard....anyways...why would a man with the personality of a puppy go do this to himself ... I have issues understanding this...I think pain when I see it. but he says no...I think he's a lil sick and twisted he's just putting on a show...however i will recomend it to the other women i know... It's a very nice feature for them to have...so when you order your next man....lol be sure he's fully equiped with his accsessories..mmmm mmm good.

Anywho i had to spout about that one... not to mention, move butthead down the blog line cause im tired of looking at mr. pooki.

Sorry it's been a while since i've blogged...I'm lacking in the free time depart ment...i'm getting a new pet..I'm totally excited...gonna be cool.

So I went to H2Oaisis for the first time...I loved it i thought it was cool...totally wore me out but hey it happens. I worry that K may never leave her house with me again because AM can be a monster...but I will tell you it put a whole new light on K for me she is an awesome lil Chica...hope she knows that too..anywho off to work i go hi ho hi ho

Friday, February 24, 2006

Pooki...

well ladies you'll be proud...He's done I'm tired of his whiney ass bullshit....thats it nothing else...no more.

..we are be psycologicaly, and socialy different...HELL YEA Tony we are... I will always know that... thank you for reminding me what a wonderful person I am... Doubt you'd know that thought I don't belive you really know anything about me or who i really am..because if you did you wouldnt think that...anywho...once again Have a nice life Tony!...


Ok so another fine example of why we shouldnt tolerate men...i have to admit in the last few months i've totaly found some self esteem...and realized alot about my own self that i never understood. i'm actually feeling good about me and who I am for a change...anywho back to work..oh wait no sleepy time first...laters

Sunday, February 12, 2006

MEME thing

Jobs I Have Had But Have Lie About Having So As To Make Myself Appear Less of a Dork:
One:
independent steel...I think that's the name...I was a dork...I am a dork

Movies I Have Great Difficulties Understanding:
I totally agree with "Sin city" ...Way too much going on there...I understand the comic book effect...But gee golly...

Places In Which I Want To Vacation:
Bora Bora
Tahiti
Paris
Portugal


Foods I Cannot Stand:
stoffer's Mac & cheese...BLAHHHHH!

Places I'd Rather Not Be, Thank You Very much:
anywhere within 3000 miles of my mother!

Albums In My Collection I Blame On the Husband:
I don't have one of those...MUAHAHAHAH so none of them are my fault right???..But I could blame my brother since they were all his...

Vehicles I Have Nearly Totaled:
heh..Myy parents 92' Chevy suburban..
oops..Myy 97' Chevy silverado..
ummmIi thinkthat'ss all

I am tagging:ummmmmmm....Tony...Shana..Hopp to it girlie.Umm Alaine MUAHAHHA

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Wow...it's great to know I have awesome friends! thank you...you've all helped me become who I am Today...I couldn't ask for better friends. You all remind me that ..yea I can do it...no matter the obsticle...I love you guys

and I will get around to your little questionthingiemabob...soonish..hehe..my brain isn't up to questions right now...took me 30 min to get this far lol

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Moods

Yup...thats right i'm in a mood...ready to pick a fight...ok not a fight just a really good argument...after work today i had trouble shutting the liquor store bitch off...might have had something to do with working 10 days straight at one job and working a second too...and being told my night off was canceled...oh yea lets not forget the 300 cases of booze that were delivered today...that was fun...

Heh...so don't mind me...Grin and bear it right?...well here goes...just stay out of my way damnit lol...chugga chugga woo woo...like lu says...

I love this little "Title" box...heh...you figure it out

Ever feel that way???

OK..So those of you that want to laugh because now I'm faced with a child....First let me remind you A)I have worked many years caring for 6 little people at one time of all different ages...B) I may come off quiet but ...I'm very stubborn...I learned from the best...

..HOWEVER...Let me tell you something 5 YEAR OLDS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!.....GRRRR...Ok so grandma is sick...so I get to pick up little person at daycare..feed her and get her ready for bed..after woring 8 hours 7 days in a row...bedtime rolls around...Little person thinks she needs to sleep with grandma...No you don't need to get sick.."Yes I want to be sick"..No your going to bed in your bed..."No I'm sick"....heh ......And yea..Well after being carried to her room...I somehow managed to ignore the arguing and get her pjs on...Then got her in bed unwillingly...Got kicked and hit and even spit at I do believe...I managed to remain calm through...Walked out the door and well yea I kinda held it shut behind me...But I did manage to get some new toys before they made holes in the door...I always wanted a stick pony...oooh and a big pink crayola piggy bank...heh...Needed something to put my change in.....Yea anyhow...

I WON!!!!!....MUAHAHAHHA...52 min....She's sound asleep...

thanks to my guidance counselor..Awesome moral support and good tips...Kept me from duct taping her to the ceiling...

oooh but yes my bed is calling to me...I won I won hehehe....I will win...She will see...
I need to clean my room sooooo bad..Yea gee..Wish I had a day off sometime soon..But noooo...Dream on babe...alrighty my eyes are falling asleep without me..Off to bed I go...laters

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

My room

Ok so i couldn't think of a whole lot to blog about since i've mostly been working...so I took pictures of my new room...it's totally rockin and i'm lovin it...wow that sounded like a comercial if i've ever heard one...anywho....enjoy!



Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Look What I did...Haha Mommy I painted on my walls..

Isn't it cool!..I'm so proud of my self...And I just wanna jump up and down and taunt my mom..I'm aloud to paint on my walls...So its about 4ft by 5ft. anywho I have more I'll add to it eventually...It's nice to beable to put that creative spark to use when I have it...And actually have it be ok. Any ideas on what else I should add to the collage?...

Oh yea so I like totally busted my toe last night...Once again I fell up the stairs...Broke my big toe..I had my nurse look at it just to make sure it wasn't the foot and I needed to go in or something..But I got home and now its all purple and blue yay fun and my foot is like twice the size of my right foot...grrrr....anywho....

Heidi I MISS YOU!!!!!!!...You to JD...*sigh*.....Cant say the same about the neighbor boy... heh

Saturday, January 21, 2006

*Phew* .... I'm all moved...And settled in for the most part still a box here and there...But those are yea well...I'm sure you know. I'm loving my new place it's totally awesome...The lady of the house is great. Totally open and understanding...Artistic, creative...Just awesome..She rocks...I think I'm going to learn a lot here. Its great cause when I'm here there usually isn't anyone else here...And when I'm here and working the little person is sleeping *evil laugh* hehehe... Working two jobs is tough..But I know it's not the first time and it won't be the last..So we will see...I think this is going to be really good for me...There are a few interesting things I'll have to get used to...But nothing so far I can't handle besides an extremely open household..Which actually probly good for me...Cause yea well we all know how twisted I am...But I have to say the new year has brought me a lot of new and awesome things...

so I did a search for myself...Yes I was bored...I found me!...This is what I found...*Movie* ... Wow high school...YAY! lol

hmmm okies well I wanted to blog and say HI!!! I'm here...And totally happy ...I feel so much better about me and who I'm becoming...laters everyone *MUAH*

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Caos and Serenity

So my life has one again fallen into disarray...Craziness..Always..So I'm blogging because ...Well in fact I'd rather my mother didn't know about this stuff..So those of you with your connections...Yea shhhh!

I"M MOVING!!!! woowooo...Yea I know I said I never would...But yea well life happens...I got another job...I think the company I work for is punishing me for that..But well hey I gotta do what I gotta do..

the new year has brought many a good things to me, some new opportunities, new people, a new job,,a fixed truck *grin* I so wanna do a dance...hehehe

So I also met someone pretty cool the other day..Totally someone on my level, and an awesome conversationalist...We'll have to see...No ne the less another kick ass friend.

anywho sorry I haven't been around to blog but I will soon! I gotta get moved and settled...If anyone would like to volunteer a vehicular or some muscles they would be greatly appreciated...*grin*

laters...I will be back

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Rage against the homeless

Alright, so I know I haven't blogged anything meaningful in a while so I might as well it's my day off and I'm procrastinating doing laundry. I've mostly been working..So yea that's about all I talk about now...Hey maybe I'll have another job soon! *rolling eyes*..But anyhow

So, company policy says we can't serve the homeless...Lots of reasons...Valid ID..Drinking in public..Shoplifting,begging..And the list goes on....

So it is a constant battle...Always..

Day 1...

I'm behind the counter just hangin out...My coworker is sitting out front smoking...Still withing eye line (coworker signals)...homeless lady walks into the store...Native, late 50's, about 6 layers of clothes on and in serious need of a bath...Not a shower a good soak...Ok maybe a few soaks...As she walks past the counter and my watchful eye...I noticed she'd peed her pants..hmm...The stench follows...She comes to the counter..

Ah yes.. I think to myself..hmm this should be interesting...Where's the lysol..

Ok so she comes to the counter..Big less than toothy grin... The stench of urine and booze waifs over the counter..I politely smile and ask for id as I look over her shoulder to see my coworker outside shakin her head and giving me the tap on the nose...I was one step ahead..

hmm no ID...Well mam to be in our store your required to have ID...Well I'm 57 she says can't you see that...Well lets try this...mam have you Been drinking this evening...mm well no I I was just getting done babysitting I want a beer now...hmm yea well have you been drinking already?
no..hmmm well I can smell liquor on you...Well I just woke up I had a few beers last night...Oh I thought you were babysitting...(damn who's letting her watch their kids)...hmmm well company policy says I cant serve you because I can smell liquor so ill have to ask you to leave...She left not very willingly ...But a quick threat to Call the police or CSP hurried her out the door...

Mind you it took three days of this before she gave up it was to the point she wouldn't get but two steps in the door and we'd have to tell her she was 86'ed and was trespassing...

There are a few here and there that we just know...All we do is ask for ID when they walk in and they turn around and walk out...About 4 or 5 of them anyways...

There is this one...Tend to stand across the street and beg money from bar goers...ID guess he got kicked out of the local mini mart / liquor store now though...He's started to ask people to just flat out but him a beer... There has been a couple times he's had customers ask up to watch them walk across the parking lot with their stuff because he'll follow them...Now come on dude your standing across the street so drunk your puking between begging patrons...Priorities I suppose...

so Christmas rolls around and they all think the rules don't apply...I saw every one of them that day...They were gathered around the street in herds. This one man in particular caused quite the mess..The one I mentioned earlier...He'd worked his way around the block and managed to hide on the side of the building we didn't have a camera on and next to the restaurant...Cause they all know if they aren't on our property we cant do anything... He's coaxing customers over to him and begging beers from them because its Christmas...Well they get a drunk guy to come in...And well he was drunk I picked up on that one rather quick like...However since the intoxication had set inhe decided to share his knowing...He started off with "you know what I'm really up to huh?"...Well yes indeed I do sir...I'm listening...I'm buying for homeless....I said awww how nice cause its Christmas huh? Yea its really nice of me huh.... Well that's too bad sir cause I cant sell to you anyways...But thanks and have a great night...

black guy comes in buys a pack of phillies...2 min. Later walks in again and tries to buy the same 2 40's that the other guy bought...hmmm well this is interesting lets see what happens...He bought them...Walked across the street and dropped them in the snow...NO WAY...Well he just got himself 86'ed...And the rage against the homeless goes on...

Monday, December 19, 2005

rethinking things

So like nothing new is going on...I've been going out a little more meeting some people...its been really cool...never quite new what i was missing... ..thats kinda something if nothing else hehehe..I understood that if none else did.

i've been changeing a lot in the last few months...especially since my parents left...I had to rethink my whole life...and learn a whole new set of lessons that trust me i learn somethin new every day.

god have i got to rearange somethings...cheers!

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Birthday return

So this hunk of metal crashed...*sigh* another $260 out of my check...glad i get some holiday pay on my next check.

So I missed everyone...i'll have to do some catching up i'm sure...lots of reading yay!

*doin a dance* today is my Birthday WOowoo...22..hmm yea i have a feeling this is going to be a conerstone year in my life lots of things are changeing, im hopefull for new beginings , lessons and some great times no doubt!...I missed everyone so much the last few weeks...

Thank you ladies for an awesome B-day I love you...you guys are great to me.

i got to talk to my daddy today for about 30 min...I so miss him. I cried like a baby..I miss him so much..he sounds better...but i can still hear the pain in his voice...*sigh* welcome to life. I still wish he was around sometimes...sure could use a hug now and then.